No Fucks Given [A.A]

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M i a

I skipped choreo today. I've been crying over Desmond the whole day. I swear. I miss him so much and that dream was too real. I just been reminiscing and replaying it in my head all day.

August been blowing me up all day. He wanted to stay with me but he has to get ready because we have another concert in 4 days, a free day tomorrow which isn't going to be free for me because I stayed here today and 3 more days of preparation. I wanted him to be on his shit and not be worried about me.

Trey has also texted me telling me Chris says hey too but he didn't want to tell me himself becuase he thinks I believe he stole my stuff...there's no evidence that he didn't but everyone is innocent until proven guilty.

Gen Im guessing Trey told her and even Ashely texted me...

That made me think about what Des said..telling me to watch my back and stuff he ain't say no names which is what has me confused. It may be Ashely she's been a little jealous and rude at times but maybe she was just pms'ing but what other girl is there...sure there's Tina. But it couldn't have been her and Gen is my best friend Im 112 percent positive it ain't her.

....so it has to be...

A u g u s t

Im really worried about Mia. Im guessing she had anotha' one of ha' dreams. But it hit ha' harder than normal. Right now its about 5 so I'm about to go get ha' some hot wings and nachos along with a Teddy bear, tissue, and candy to cheer ha' up. It's the least I could do.

I pick it up from the mall. I had a friend custom make it real quick this morning and make the stitching on the heart the brown bear was holding say " I 💜 you tiny dancer from Aug."

I thought it was cute. I go back to my room shower and put on some basket ball and white tee. Then grab all the stuff up in my arms. While closing my door with my foot.

"Mia let me in."

"Uh uh.."

"Please I brought you food, your favorites..."
After about 3 seconds she opens the door

I walk past her and dump the stuff on her bed. As she closes tha' door. I wrap her in ma' arms. She slowly wraps her arms around me too. "Im here fa' you whenever you wanna' talk aite'? Don't fa' get that." I kiss here forehead "now c'mon get back in bed baby." I pick her up bridal style and lay her in bed.

"I'll leave if you want me t-"

"No lay with me....please."

I get in bed next to her. "Netflix or you wanna' talk?"

"Netflix, we can talk later."

"Okay."

She lays on my chest while I pick out the movie and she scans the stuff I brought her. She smiles once she gets to the bear. "Aw, I heart you tiny dancer. Im big but it'll do." she says joking

"Big? Yeah okay, anyways you eva' watched Juice?" I know she has everyone has

"Nope and im big." she pouts

"What girl?! You crazy." Of course the princess hasn't

She look up at me and pulls off my shades sitting them on the nightstand next to her. "I've heard of it. I just ain't gotta' round to watching it yet."

(I LOVE THAT MOVIE AND I FREAKING LOVE TUPAC. Mentioning that yall should really check out Mad house by @ConnectTheThots it's my fave. 👍)

It starts playing and my baby Tupac pops up.
"Ayyyyeee that's ma' baby!"

"Girl if you don't shut up and watch tha' movie."

"My bad, my bad."

But as soon as that light skin girl popped up August gone have the nerve to say "Damn"

And what I said to him was "Boy if you don't shut yo ass up."

And he ain't that shit no damn more. He had my ass fucked up.

Now that I got blessings from Desmond, and I definitely believe that was really him telling me all that stuff in the form of a dream. I'ma open up to August more...maybe trust him a little more. But our re being public is out of the question right now. Even though we're doing nothing more than talking. We ain't doing any of that PDA shit. Yet.

A s h e l y ' s     D a y

I notice Mia isn't at rehersal's today but hell. I AM NOT COMPLAINING. I can not stand her. And I will be damned if she gets August man...THAT IS MINE. Im determined to take every nigga away from her. That's why I'm going after Chris.

After practice I ask him for a ride back to the hotel.

"Wassup witchu? You been lookin' down lately." I rub on his shoulder

"It's just August think's I stole Mia's stuff and he ain't been fucking with me lately..." he rubs his face but I honestly wanted to burst out laughing

"Aw babe, I know you didn't do it....just wait on it August will get over it.."

"Yeah you right," he admits "You wanna' chill at the bar with me?"

I smirk "yep sounds straight."

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Chris is drunk as fuck. Which is good. Because I had something in mind...

We go up into his room and I hop out of the shower in Lingerie.

"Ash?" he sits up looking at me and I walk over slowly pinning him back down

I start kissing on him. And his shirt comes off along with his pants and he pulls a condom out of the dresser. "Wait first, let's take a picture." I kiss his check while he takes it and I post it on Instagram.

When fucking a drunk person while sober. They're either dead and short or wild and sloppy. Im just glad shit wasn't dead. Haven't had any since I was doing deeds for August. Wonder how his ass is gone feel when he see's this shit on IG.

After I'm done I'll make sure to text Corie.

Wassup😏

If I'm being fired. Im about to leave with a damn bang for sure...