i tried to bite my tongue
but the burning truth slipped
through my lips, and our little
fantasy was shattered in a
matter of seconds.
three simple words made our
world stop spinning and suddenly
we couldn't even look at
each other without having
tears built up of torment and
anxiety sting at our eyes.
i can't anymore.
and now we're strangers.
we walk passed each other
as if we've never met,
as if we've never held hands
or kissed,
or told each other things
we'd never tell anyone else.
and my eyes are stinging again,
tear stained cheeks press
against my kitchen floor
as i realized i ruined everything.
i ruined us.
i ruined you.
i ruined myself.
but i just can't anymore.
so please forgive me,
please don't hate me,
because i can't imagine
how hard this is for you,
and i hate to be the reason why
you stay up all night, crying over
what we were,
trying to think of reasons
of why i gave up.
was it because you
were emotionally unavailable?
or were you just not
good enough?
the truth is, i was never good enough.
im selfish and im greedy
and i can never love you
the way you deserve to be loved.
so please forgive me.
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i know i should end things but i can't seem to let her go.
