they said it was never me
they said i was too young to see
the reasons why you left
and deserted us, me,
and exerted so much pain.
i felt insane,
and i felt like i lost
something that i never had,
i felt like i lost my dad.
you were supposed to
protect me,
shield me,
hold me.
but you didnt.
you ran away and decided
that being a father wasnt for you,
you just couldnt stick through
because loving someone besides
yourself was too much for you
to give up, youre pride and
ego stood in the way.
but maybe one day,
you'll realize that you can
love me, and be the
father i never had.
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my words hold the weight of my sadness, but no one can really tell.
