The Emo Girl And The Nerd

What Am I Doing Here?

My hands shook as I waited nervously.
Tyler rubbed my back to comfort me and Holly held my hand in hers.
"You doing ok?" Holly asks me.
"No." I admit.
Tyler kisses my forehead and smiles reassuring at me.
"Thank you guys for being here with me." I say.
"Anything for you Angel." Tyler says smiling at me.
"Jordyn Bellar." A security guard calls to me from across the room.
My heart jumps when he calls my name.
I wasn't ready for this.
I wasn't ready to see her.
"You'll be ok, I promise." Tyler says to me.
"Thanks." I say standing up.
I walk over to the security guard and he leads me into another room.
I sit down in a chair on one side of a plexiglass wall.
My palms are sweaty and my legs are shaking.
I can't do this.
But I guess I have to cause just as I was about to get up to leave she walks in the room.
I stared at her as she looked at me confused.
She looked nothing like me.
She has natural blonde hair while I'm a natural brunette, she has chocolate brown eyes while mine are dull blue.
A frown played on her lips as she sat down across from me on the other side of the plexiglass.
I studied her face for a minute taking in her looks.
She was actually quite beautiful.
She had a good body, a beautiful face and she portrayed confidence.
Nothing like me.
She was only thirty five but she looked more like twenty five.
"Who are you?" She finally asks.
I open my mouth to say something but my throat goes dry and words won't come out.
"I've seen you somewhere.." She says.
"Yeah you have." I say quietly.
"Where?" She asks curiously.
Again my throat goes dry and words won't come.
"You actually haven't seen me for fourteen years." I say looking in here eyes.
Realization dawns on her as I say those words.
"Jordyn?" She chokes out.
Tears well up in my eyes but I blink them away.
I nod my head and she studies my face closely.
"You look so much like your father, you're so beautiful." She says.
"Why did you do it?" I choke out, trying not to cry.
She sighs and looks down.
"Why would you do that to your own daughter?!" I yell.
"Jordyn-"
"No! Don't say that you're sorry, I don't want it, I don't want your pity and I don't want you." I say, anger clear in my voice.
"I wish I could turn back to that day, I would have done it all different, I regret it everyday of my life." She says with tears in her eyes.
"It was your mistake, I had nothing to do with it, for God's sake I was only three! If you couldn't handle me you should've given me up for adoption, not tried to fuckin kill me!!" I scream.
Tears stream down her face but I feel no pity for her.
She deserved this.
"My whole life I wondered why you left, I would cry myself to sleep thinking it was my fault." I say.
"I know I can never make it up to you, but just know I regret it, and I will for the rest of my life." She says.
"You deserve to rot in prison." I say getting up and walking away.
Tears stream down my face as I walk back to Tyler and Holly.
They both run to me and hug me.
"I just want to go home." I say.
Tyler nods his head and takes my hand in his.
Red dots danced in my vision and I felt really dizzy.
"Jordyn?" Holly asks.
Why does she sound so far away?
"Jordyn!" Tyler yells as I feel a sharp pain in my head.
Then everything goes black.

I slowly open my eyes and instantly regret it.
Bright sunlight shines through the window making my head hurt more.
I look around confused.
This isn't my room....
"You're awake." I hear someone say.
I turn my head to see Tyler, Holly, and dad just coming in the room.
"Where am I?" I ask them.
"The hospital." Dad says walking over to me.
"The hospital?" I ask confused.
"You don't remember do you?" Holly asks.
"Remember what?" I ask confused.
What are they talking about?
"You don't remember the prison?" Tyler asks me.
The prison??
What prison?
Why was I in prison.
"What are you guys talking about?" I ask getting frustrated.
"Never mind." Dad sighs.
"Why am I in the hospital?" I ask.
"Just get some rest." Holly says.
"No! Why am I in the hospital?" I ask again.
Why wouldn't they tell me?
And what was that about a prison?
Before anyone can answer me a doctor comes in and smiles at me.
"I see the lovely patient is awake." The doctor says.
Ugh why the hell won't they tell me why I'm in the hospital?!
"What am I doing here?" I ask the doctor.
Maybe he'll tell me.
"Just rest and it'll come back to you." He says.
I groan in frustration.
Ok maybe he won't tell me.
"Can I talk to Tyler for a few minutes?" I ask.
"Yeah sure." Dad says standing up.
Him, Holly, and the doctor leave the room leaving Tyler and me.
Tyler sits on the bed and takes my hand in his.
"You don't remember anything about yesterday?" He asks.
"Wait I've been in the hospital since yesterday?!" I ask.
"Yeah.." Tyler says.
"Why won't anyone tell me what's going on?" I ask.
"You don't remember your mom?" Tyler asks.
"My mom?!" I ask frustrated.
"Meeting her.." Tyler says.
"I haven't seen my mom since I was three!" I all but yell.
Tyler sighs and stands up.
"Just close your eyes and try to remember." Tyler says.
"Why the hell am I in the fuckin hospital??!" I ask losing my temper.
"You went to see your mom." Tyler says.
"What?!" I ask more confused then ever.
My mom?
"You found out why she left, then you went to see her." Tyler says.
"What?! Then why the hell am I in the hospital?!" I ask still frustrated.
"You went to see her, in prison..." Tyler says.
Prison?
My mom is in prison?
And I went to see her?
What the hell is going on here?
"Why is my mom in prison..?" I ask.
"She's been in prison for fourteen years..." Tyler says.
"Why?!" I ask getting frustrated again.
"She tried killing you when you were three.." Tyler says.
Suddenly everything comes rushing back to me.
That night I found out about my mom.
When I found out she was in prison.
And I went to visit her...
Then after the visit.. What happened after..?
"I remember... But why am I in the hospital..?" I ask.
"After you visited her you came back and collapsed on the floor. You hit your head pretty hard, that's why you're in the hospital." Tyler explains.
"Ok...." I say remembering it.
"The doctor says you have a slight concussion but other then that you're fine." Tyler says.
I nod my head and close my eyes.
Remembering everything I said to my mother.
'You deserve to rot in prison.'
'It was your mistake.'
'If you couldn't handle me you should've given me up for adoption.'
"Jordyn?" Tyler asks.
I look up to meet his concerned expression.
"Yeah?" I ask.
"You feeling ok?" He asks.
"Yeah... Just thinking.." I say.
Tyler takes my hand in his and studies my face.
"What did you say to her?" He asks, referring to my mother.
Tears well up in my eyes as I remember our conversation.
"I told her that she deserved to rot in prison.." I say looking down.
Tyler sighs and kisses my forehead.
Man I am fucked up.
Telling my own mother to rot in prison.
But then again she did try killing me.
"She was so beautiful." I say as tears run down my face.
Tyler pulls me into a hug and kisses my hair.
"How could I say that to her?" I sob.
"She tried killing you Jordyn, she didn't even deserve to see you." Tyler says.
"I know, and I resent her for what she did, but she is my mother." I say.
"I found something about her..." Tyler says looking down.
"What?" I ask curiously.
"She finishes her fifteen year sentence in three months." Tyler says.
I sigh and look down.
"She's going to try to get back in your life, and I don't want you to get hurt, for God's sake she put you in the hospital!" Tyler says.
"I know!" I say trying not to yell.
"I'm sorry Jordyn... I know this is hard for you." Tyler says.
I nod my head in understanding.
"I'm just concerned for you." He says looking in my eyes.
"I know, but it's my decision to make." I say.
Tyler nods his head and kisses my forehead.
"I'm sorry, I can't make your decisions, but I am scared for you." He says.
"Thank you." I say smiling.
Holly and dad walk back in and smile at me.
"I remember..." I tell them.
"You ok kiddo?" Dad asks me.
"Yeah, I guess, I mean I just saw my mom who tried to kill me fourteen years ago." I sigh.
Dad nods his head in understanding.
"Tyler just told me that she finishes her sentence in three months.." I say.
Dad sighs and puts his head in his hands.
"How does your head feel?" Holly asks changing the subject.
"Ok, it hurts a little." I say.
Holly nods her head.
The tension in the room was so thick you could slice it with a knife.
"How long do I have to stay here?" I ask.
"At least over night." Dad says.
I sigh and lean back in the bed.
"You should get some rest." Tyler suggests.
I nod my head and close my eyes.
Almost instantly I feel myself falling into sleep.
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Jordyn met her mom, tell me what you think so far
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