The Emo Girl And The Nerd

Flashback

"She what?!" Holly asks just as stunned as I was.
I nod my head as tears threaten to spill.
Holly pulls me into a hug and I can hear her sobbing.
"I'm so sorry, I had no idea." Holly says pulling away.
"I know." I say blinking away tears.
"Why?" Holly chokes out.
"Why did she do it?"
"I don't know.. I was in the bathtub and she tried drowning me." I say.
Tears stream down Holly's face and I wipe them away.
"I'm so sorry." Holly sobs.
"It's not your fault." I say.
"I don't know what I would do without you." Holly says wiping tears away.
I smile and hold her hand.
"Why would she do that?" Holly asks.
"I read about it for awhile and found out that she was only seventeen when I was born, she wasn't ready to have a kid so she tried killing me." I say as tears well up in my eyes.
Holly hugs me and sobs on my shoulder.
"Jordyn, you don't know how much you've helped me, if it wasn't for you I'd be dead." Holly says.
It was actually true.
Three years ago we  were swimming by ourselves and Holly got out too deep.
She would've drowned if I hadn't pulled her out.
And honesty I don't know what I would've done without her.
"What happened after she tried... Drowning you?" Holly asks hesitantly.
"She was tried and convicted of attempted murder, then sent to prison." I say looking down.
"Do you know where?" Holly asks.
"I don't know, and I couldn't care less." I say.
Holly nods her head in understanding.
"Larson Penitentiary." I blurt out.
"That's where she is?" Holly asks.
"Yeah." I sigh.
"I guess you have a decision to make." Holly says looking in my eyes.
I nod my head and take in a deep breath.
"I'm gonna talk to my dad, tell him I know about it." I say.
"How do you think he'll take it?" She asks.
"I don't know." I say.
Holly sighs and closes her eyes.
I couldn't imagine the emotions going through her head right now.
She had just found out that her best friend almost died when she was three.
She opens her eyes to meet mine.
"Are you gonna go see her?" Holly asks me.
"I don't know, what would I say?" I ask.
"I don't know." Holly sighs.
"I can't just go up to her and say 'hey it's your daughter that you tried drowning fourteen years ago." I say.
"I know, it's your decision to make." Holly says.
I nod my head and take a deep breath.
Why would I go see her?
I resented her.
I know it sounds horrible but she tried killing me for God's sake!
What was I supposed to do?
Just go up to her and hug her for almost drowning me.
No.
But I had this nagging feeling that I needed to.

I sat in my bed feeling like puking.
My stomach hurt like hell and the dots in my vision were back.
After I told Holly about my mom we talked a few more minutes then I went home cause I felt really sick.
So now here I am, almost throwing up from all the stress.
Dad thinks it's from the flu so I just went along with it.
I couldn't bring myself to tell him that I know about mom.
Not yet.
So I just sat in bed feeling like crap.
The questions I asked myself earlier came back in my mind.
Why didn't she want me?
Sure she was young but she had dad to help her.
I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind and turned on my phone.
I grabbed my ear buds and put on my music.
Stressed out by twenty one pilots came on and it was the perfect song for my situation.
'Wish we could turn back time, to the good old day's.'
Yepp definitely my song.
I close my eyes and listen to the rest of the song.
Yepp I was definitely stressed out.
I sigh and open my eyes once the song ends.
But what I don't expect is Tyler to be standing in my doorway holding a tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream and two spoons.
"Hey." He says smiling at me.
Tears well up in my eyes as I gesture for him to come in.
He sits on my bed and hands me a spoon.
After everything that happened today I really needed this.
I blinked the tears away and smiled at him.
"You didn't answer my texts, I knew something was wrong." Tyler says opening the tub of ice cream.
He hands it to me and I gratefully take it.
"Sorry." I say avoiding eye contact.
Tyler smiles and kisses my forehead.
I take a bite of the ice cream and let it melt in my mouth.
How did he know mint is my favorite?
"Holly texted me.." Tyler says.
I freeze and slowly look up at Tyler.
"What did she tell you?" I ask nervously.
"Nothing, I was on my way here already and she told me to come see you." He says.
I nod my head and look down again.
"Jordyn-" Tyler starts but I cut him off.
"No." I state simply.
Tyler sighs and closes his eyes.
"I'm sorry, but I don't want to talk about it right now." I say.
"Yeah it's ok, I'm sorry." Tyler says.
I nod my head.
"Thanks for the ice cream." I say smiling.
"You're welcome." Tyler says taking a spoonful of the ice cream.
I smile and take another bite.
He really knows how to keep my mind off things.
"So I heard about Holly's dance competition." Tyler says changing the subject.
"Yeah she's really nervous." I say with a laugh.
Tyler nods his head and takes another spoonful of ice cream.
I look at him as he puts the spoon in his mouth.
"What?" He asks when he catches me looking at him.
Darn I've been caught!
I smile and kiss Tyler.
"I have something to tell you." I say sighing.
"What is it?" He asks.
"I found something about my mom..." I say looking down at my hands.
Tyler takes my hand in his and kisses my forehead.
He knew about my mom leaving when I was three, but just like me he didn't know why.
"I found out why she left." I say looking up to meet Tyler's green eyes.
"Why?" Tyler asks.
"She- she tried.. Drowning me." I say as tears well up in my eyes.
Just thinking about it made me sick.
My own mother.
Tyler pulls me into a hug and kisses the top of my head.
"I'm so sorry Jordyn." Tyler says hugging me tight.
"Why would she do that to her own daughter?" I sob.
"I don't know.... I don't know." Tyler sighs.
I cry into his chest as he holds me close.
"I'm just glad she didn't succeed." Tyler says kissing my forehead.
"Thanks." I say smiling a little.
"I know where she is.." I say.
"You're not going to see her are you?" He asks.
"I don't know.. What would I say?" I ask.
Tyler sighs and squeezes my hand for comfort.
"How could she do that? She tried killing me when I was just three." I say as more tears well up.
"I don't know why she did it, but I do know that it was in no way your fault." Tyler says looking into my eyes.
I just nod my head.
"Every time I try getting those images of her out of my head more come in." I say in defeat.
"Think of something that makes you happy." Tyler suggests.
"Like what?" I ask.
"When I asked you out for the first time." Tyler smiles.
I smile as I remember that day.
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-Flashback-

I close my locker for the last time this year.
Finally school was over and I was ready for the summer.
I grab all my books and start walking down the hall when someone calls my name.
I turn around to face Tyler William's.
He and I had been friends since the beginning of the school year but we were total opposites.
He was a nerd and I was the 'emo freak.'
But he was a good guy.
Sweet, cute, and smart.
"Yeah?" I ask smiling at him.
"Um... I was wondering if you wanted to hang out tomorrow, maybe grab a coffee?" He asks.
I smile to myself at his cute awkwardness.
"I would love to." I say smiling.
Truth is I had secretly had a crush on him for two months.
Hey don't judge!
He was the cute nerd guy.
I mean who wouldn't be attracted to him?
Ok maybe a lot of girls didn't like nerds but I personally think nerds are cute as hell.
"Awesome! I'll see you tomorrow." Tyler says trying to hide his excitement.
"Ok, it's a date." I say turning around and walking away.
I smile as I walk down the hallway and out to the parking lot.
Tyler William's just asked me out!

-End flashback-
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"Yeah that was a good day." I say smiling.
"I was scared to death!" Tyler admits.
"You were so awkward and cute." I laugh.
Tyler rolls his eyes and laughs at me.
God I love this boy.
I smile and for no reason kiss Tyler.
Cause what's life without surprise's?

Well there's how Jordyn and Tyler met there ya go!
Hookups you enjoyed it and I won't be updating alot until next weekend
Maybe once or twice during the week