Meeting Life.

1. Just My Life

'' Ashley, Get the hell out of here!''. My dad shouts at me as he walks in my direction. We were in a pointless fight again. It happens every single day, again and again. ''Ooooh I wish I could, I wish I could go away from here!''. My dad walks over me and hits me in my face. That's it, it's enough. I threw something at him. I missed but it felt good, it felt like i finally did something. It's not much, but it's something. My dad looks at me with that 'this isn't over yet' face and leaves. I hate him so much. I hate my own dad.

After he left my room I burst out crying. I fell into my bed, crying. I tried everything to cry in silence so nobody could hear me. I don't like it when people see of hear me crying. I don't want to seem weak. This happens all the time, I'm so sick of it. Why does this always happen to me? What have I done?

When I was little my dad and my mum were always fighting. I hated it, he was always yelling at us. We were always wrong in his eyes. My mom was always in tears . When you looked in her eyes you could tell that she was hurt. I didn't understand why she was with him. My mom was the best thing I've ever had. She was like my best friend. I could tell her everything. I loved her so much, I don't know what I'd do without her. But my dad, he's the worst person I've ever met. Why is he hurting us? It's just not fair, i just hate my life.

I'm looking for blades to cut with in my room, i couldn't find anything, so i should use a sharpener again.. I was addicted, i was totally out of control, when i'm mad i just find a way out by cutting myself. I couldn't even feel the pain because of all the drama that was going on. After getting up, i scrolled trough twitter and noticed the Janoskians uploaded a new video, i love them so much, those 5 idiots mean the world to me. I opened the link and watched the video, a smile appeared on my face, just at time.

Hazel called me a few times today, but i couldn't answer, so I called her back. She picked up and asked me what happened, i told her everything, from the living room to my bedroom. She was speechless while the tears were streaming down my face again. "Don't worry I'll be there in a sec" she said and hang up. This is what I loved about her. She was the sweetest person in my life, the one who gave me a little hope, the one who I danced with. I loved dancing. I had dance class yesterday with Hazel, it was amazing to just stay away from all the drama. My long brown curly haired best friend walked in and hugged me. "Everything's gonna be alright, trust me baby".

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Thank you guys so much for reading it, @JanoTwerksForMe and I (@CananDx) will upload a new chapter every thursday, so Chapter 2. Accident (written by @JanoTwerksForMe) will be uploaded next Thursday. And I will upload the 3rd one in 2weeks. please vote and comment what you think about it , love y'all x