A different kind of Love<3

Chapter 22

Lucas:

What?!?! She doesn't want me?

I'm sitting in fifth period staring at Melody from behind confused by what all happened. She just rejected me and left me there like she never cared about me. Why would she do that, I swear I has her under my wing and she wouldn't let go. As I am off in a land I don't know, one where I don't get the girl I want, one where nothing feels right I hear the phone ring. Seconds later the teacher announced that Melody was going home. Why would she go home, she didn't even seem affected by what she had told me. In fact she said half of it with a smile on her face.

The rest of my day I feel like something in my life was ripped away. Not just one thing many things, for a while Mel had taken over my thoughts. Now my mind is empty, I don't know what to think any more.

The last bell rings and I get on the bus to go home. I really don't want to go home I'm not understood at home. I'm not understood by anyone. Mel was that one person who I felt actually cared about my life. I don't know what I'm going to do now.

I walk in the front door and I see my mom on the couch in tears, surrouned by tissues and wine. This really worries she hasn't drank since dad left.

"Mom?"

"Hunny I don't want to talk at the moment, but just to let you know Jared left me for another girl. He didn't just leave me he cheated on me, then decided to drop me off like I was no big deal. Oh yea and don't expect to go to your aunts anytime soon because you know that's Jared's new girl. So yea I'm just going to sit here for a bit and cool off. K?"

"Oh mom, I'm so sorry you seemed so happy."

"Yea you know but things change, now I think I'm going to go out for a bit don't worry."

"Are you sure that's a good idea?"

"yea I will be fine."

"Okay see you later mom."

"Bye sweety"

I watch as my mom picks up her purse , sniffling, and walks out side. I go up to my room and I try to calm down and stop thinking about my day but you know I cant. I decide to text Kyle and see where he was today.

4:22~ Yo bro where u at

4:56~ Dude I'm sick and irritated with u, lets talk later

5:02~ Bro come one we r good it was just a fight

5:03~ Lucas come on you need to grow up and start realizing you cant just blow everything off

5:04~ Bro mel dumped me today

5:04~ I told you man you need to treat girls right if you want them to stay

5:05~ Kyle you aren't helping I feel horrible

5:06~ Bro you should

5;06~ how could u say that

5:07~ Man you have been different lately and not good different, u need to get u cant just play who u want when you want, either in your life or not, so stop coming to me just when you need help and figure out how to have real friendships.

I don't answer after what kyle sends me... I want to cry, I want to cry so bad I just lay there and stare at my wall. I cant control my tears they flood out of me. Soon I drift off into a deep sleep. As I sleep I dream that Mel and I are together and life is great but then out of no where a hand from the sky rips her out of my life. The hand is Gods hand, God took her out of my life. If God is so great how could he allow this.

I wake up to a loud banging on the door. I walk down stares to see to police officers holding my mother by the wrists.

"Is this your mother?" The taller officer asks

"yes, yes she is."

"Well son you need to watch after her!"

"I'm sorry sir"

The officers throw my mom to the couch and walk out of my house. My mom looks trashed, her hair everywhere, ripped clothing, and a beer sticking out of her purse. I can only imagine the damage that could  of happened.

I go back to my room and resume crying, tears fall from my face faster then a cheetah running for its prey. I cant think straight my mind is falling apart. My life is horrible! I cant even speak to my bestfriend cause he hates me, Melody hates me, and now my mom is passed out in the living room. What do I do? I keep wiping away the tears but they don't stop. I just wish I wasn't here right now! I want to leave everyone and go somewhere where people care about me.

At this point I'm crying so hard I fall to the ground with my head down. My brain is attacking my soul. My floor is drenched in what feels like everything I have ever worked for. All my soul and all my heart feels empty, everything pours out of me and is mocking me. I'm sitting on my floor crying when I cant help but let out a scream.

"God where are you! Why would you do this to me!? Why me?!"

My heart is searching for something else to say but I cant find anything. It feels as if everyone in my life wants me to die and never to be seen again. I cant breathe. I gasp for air as tears roll into my mouth. I don't know what to do or where to go? I want to be loved... My body hurts and my mind aches at the thought of no one loving me, the thought no one would even care if i died right now. The thought that if I never came back to school no one would even notice. The thought that Melody, the girl i thought I could keep forever left for reasons I cant comprehend. The thought that Kyle has been my bestfriend since kindergarten and now he leaves me. The thought that my mother will never be the same without a man in her life. The thought that I am here, and left alone...