Don't take my memories~Drier

Chapter Nine-Back To The Start

Drew's PoV
The arduous day stretched on for what seemed like an eternity before night finally fell outside my small window, and the hospital finally started to calm down a little, though admittedly, it was still a lot louder than usual. I sighed, hating the fact that my near sound proof room couldn't keep the daunting noises out as I turned over on my bed, wanting nothing more than to finally get some sleep, after my near sleepless night prior. However, the sounds of the many patients and few, unpaid doctors conversing kept me awake, the occassional twinge of doubt running up my spine at the thought of all the people those voice must belong to, and whether or not they would find me. People seldom did find me as Luke had made sure I was tucked neatly away in the most secluded section of the Victorian building, yet it did happen from time to time when people happened to get lost, or little kids ran boisterously throughout the place, ignoring all the signs warning them not to enter my domain.

I hated people coming up into my sector of the hospital, univited, and when they did, it often left me a quivering mess under my thick duvet cover, trying desperately to protect myself from the world around me. But today, after everything that had already happened, I knew that my fragile heart wouldn't be able to take such shock and terror again.

Dealing with Kier's surprise visit had been hard and stressful enough, even though I had been ultimately glad he decided to come into my desolate room. For some reason, I had felt more at ease with him than I did with most other humans I encountered, mostly because he seemed genuinely interested about me, rather than my declining memory loss. However, just because I had managed to spit out a few, stuttered sentences to the newcomer, it didn't mean I hadn't completely stressed out and with meeting my new found friend there had come the daunting price of crippling fear and anxiety, that had ultimately clouded me from being my true self, rather than the stuttering mess I had become. He had been in my hospital room for a minute total of three minutes, according to my precise observations and that had almost been too long for me. If he'd have stayed any longer, there was no doubt that I would have had another panic attack.

Yet, despite my better judgements and my awful anxiety, I actually found myself, in my darkest and loneliest hours, wishing for his comforting prescence again, just so that I wouldn't have to be alone tonight, or at all. I couldn't help but ponder about the man as I tossed sleeplessly in my single bed, marvelling slightly at the fact that such an attractive, confident man such as kier had wished to visit me, for reasons completely unknown to me. He'd been utterly dreamy, with thick red hair and beautiful piercing eyes that had never seemed to leave me once during his visit, even though I wasn't a beauty to behold. He had seemed so confident, just from the way he'd managed to befriend me, a complete stranger, instantly without seeming scared at all. He'd entered my room like an exotic whirlwind of colour and now that he was gone, everything around me appeared to be even more gloomy and grey. Ever since he'd gone, the food had lost even more taste and my room had become even more compact and bare, leaving me certain of the fact that if I wanted my life to brighten up a little, I would need to see kier again.

It was a good few hours before I heard heavy footsteps approaching my small room, and at first I panicked at the terrifying sound before I looked up at the clock and let out a small breath of relief, realising with a sudden surge of happiness that it would most likely be Luke, due to the late time it had become. Whilst Luke never usually ventured to my room at this time in the evening, I distinctively remembered him informing me this morning that his visit would be much later and settled that it had to be him visiting me. I calmed a little as I lifted my head to gaze through the large window, meeting the warm eyes of the familiar bearded doctor briefly before I sunk back down on the bed and snuggled further into the warm covers, letting out a little yawn. Finally, the commotion downstairs had disintegrated into a peaceful silence, and I wished for nothing more than to sleep. I just hoped that Luke wouldn't keep me awake long, as I was far too polite to send him away.