A Different Me

Chapter 10

Alondra

                I walked back into my room startling Brendon, whom was sleeping, I looked at him then sat on my bed and pouted. I was angry at the world! I was mad at my mother, for letting Rose come live with us. I was mad at X for cheating on me with my only blood cousin. I was mad at Jaden for telling her about what we did together. I was mad at Rose for being a stuck up bitch and sleeping with my man. And most of all, I was mad at myself for introducing her to this lifestyle. I put my hands over my face and started to laugh.

                “Yeah, this confirms that you are indeed bipolar.” Brendon came by my side and put his hands around me. “What’s the matter baby?”

                I looked at him in his eyes. “I’m a total fuck up.” I told him with a serious expression on my face. I put my head back into my hands.

                “Are you going to tell me about it or are you just going to sit there and pout?”

                I hesitated on telling Brendon about my horrible past events but he was bound to find out anyway. I told him the whole story from sleeping with Jaden while I was with X, to sleeping with Jaden while he was with Rose, to making him my boyfriend while I’m still with X. He sat back on my bed in awe at what I had just told him. I didn’t know what to say, I couldn’t read the expression on his face. It was blank and he was silent.

                “I think I better go.” He finally spoke up.

                “No stay please,” my eyes watered up. “I need you.” I held my head down. I huffed then sat back down onto my bed. Believe it or not, I wanted my cousin back, the cousin that was shy and a school girl and nice… not this little stuck up piece of devil that was living with me. I was going to make sure that Rose turns her life back to the way it was.

 I talked my whole day away with Brendon, we laughed and talked about everything under the sun. It was something about him, he was nothing like Xavier, which made me like him even more. He decided that he would still be with me under one condition… had to break up with Xavier and he wanted to be there when it happened.

I told Brendon the way to X’s house expecting to see him there but he was gone. He then pulled off and went driving to who knows where. I saw Rose puffing on a blunt with Xavier, Jaden and a couple of their boys. I told Brendon to stop and I hopped out of his truck then made my way over to where they were sitting. Brendon was not too far behind me.

“Get up Rose, we’re leaving.” I grabbed her arm.

She blew smoke into my face. “Bitch, please!”

I was taken back at her calling me a bitch I wanted to snatch her up and beat her down like she deserved. I grabbed on her arm again only to get the same motionless movement and her laughing in my face.

“Yo’ chill ma, she said she’s staying now get gone.” One of the guys said to me.

“Aye watch who the fuck you talking to, nobody speaks to my wifey like that.” Brendon spoke up and X gave him a hard cold stare.

X laughed. “You got the wrong girl bruh, this here is mines.” X brought his arm around my shoulder and I quickly removed it.

“Xavier, it’s over! I wasn’t yours when you had ya fingers all up in my cousin or when ya lil dirty dick was in her!” I shot at him. He was taken back for a while and Jaden stood there in shock as their other friends laughed and gave X a hand pound and pats on his back.

“It’s not even like that ma, I love you and you know it.” He rubbed his chin.

“No fuck you X! You can have this bitch!” I was now in complete anger and as soon as I was going to say something else, Rose swung and hit me in my face. I was taken back at first but when I saw her lunging towards me, I prepared to fight. I bopped her right in the nose as soon as she ran up. That didn’t stop her she came back and grabbed a handful of my hair and started punching me in my stomach. I thought she done lost her damn mind. I wrapped my hands around her neck and started to choke life out of her, the more I choke, the harder she pulled my hair. We were going at it and neither of us was backing down. Soon Brendon and Jaden broke us up. We were out of breath and staring at each other with anger. While the rest of the dummies were recording us on their camera phones.

“Fuck you! You ain’t shit! I hate you!” Rose spat.

“Fuck you right back Rose and don’t think about coming back to the house or there will be an ass whoppin’ waiting for ya’” I chunked up deuces and I and Brendon were out.

I was mad as hell all the way home. My hair was a mess, I had mud and blood on me, and my face, my beautiful face was scratched the fuck up. I threw my boots at the mirror and it cracked.

“Shit! Why did I just do that?” I cursed at myself and went to go take a shower. I cried in the shower thinking about how all of this has spun out of control. I’m gonna turn you back to the way you were cousin… I promise. I tried to believe that myself but how could I? Rose was a completely different person… and me? Well I’m the reason why she’s like this. I had to do something fast before things get crazier and more dangerous. But what can be much crazier than this?