A Different Me

Chapter 26

Alondra

                Xavier and I were lying down in my bed staring at our two day old baby girl. She looked exactly like him. Brendon knew what it was when the first time he saw her, he just shook his head and left without saying one word to me. I was confused with myself I didn’t know if I should I hate Xavier and leave his ass alone or start working on our relationship.

                He picked up A’Leah and took her over to her crib then pulled her fluffy pink covers over her body. I loved my daughter and I loved Xavier for blessing me with her. Although she wasn’t planned, I was definitely happy she was brought into my life.

                “What are we doing Alondra?” Xavier asked me pulling me to where I was sitting on top of him.

                “You tell me, Xavier.” I stared at him in his hazel eyes.

                “I love you and you know that, I always will and I know you feel the same way. We both did each other dirty as hell but we’re both grown and could work this little bump in the road out.”

                I chuckled. “Little? Do you remember you slapped me like I wasn’t carrying your daughter? Or the fact that you had sex with my only cousin? Let’s not forget you still don’t know if your daughter has a little brother yet from one of my closest friends.” I shook my head and chuckled again.

                He laughed and gave me a funny look. “Oh but you were the one who slept with my best friend who knows how many times and you sure didn’t waste time getting another man while you were still with me so just dead that shit Alondra and let’s leave the past in the past. We got the prettiest daughter ever and she’s our future, baby.”

                “You’re right.” I kissed X’s neck where my name was tattooed at.

                “Excuse me? I’m what.” X put his finger up to his ear as if he didn’t hear me.

                “Ugh whatever!” I hit him playfully with the pillow.

                “But for real though, we’re going to work out and I’m handling that baby situation right now.”

                “I wouldn’t be surprised if her baby wasn’t yours or Jaden’s.”

                Xavier looked up at me like that might be a possibility, I didn’t want to get his hopes up because he did sleep with her multiple times. On the brighter side so did Jaden and Coco wasn’t selfish with her goods with anyone so who knows.

                A couple days later my mind was getting occupied with thoughts about Rose. I started to feel bad about the way I was treating her, she didn’t deserve this… okay I take that back. Rose might seem like the perfect little angel but she’s not. She is my cousin though and she’s been through a lot, I shouldn’t be the one throwing her shade all around and I was actually the only person who was throwing her shade. I basically fed Rose to the wolves without giving a damn.

                I went back and forth a million times wondering if I should call her or not. I’ve typed text messages to her but I never sent them. I didn’t even think she knew that I had my baby yet. The only reason I found out that she was doing “okay” was because of Jaden kept me updated. I needed to know for myself. This time I couldn’t let my ego stop me from sending a text message to her.

                I kissed A’Leah small dimple on her cheek and she cracked me a smile. Who knew that you could love a small person so much? I put her pacifier in her mouth and laid her on the blanket beside me.