A Different Me

Chapter 22

Alondra

                My head was spinning and I was two seconds away from slapping my mother in her face. I paced the living room back and forth thinking if I should keep this baby. Rose sat on the couch texting, eating chips and looking at me like I was crazy. I just might be going crazy. I pulled my hair into a pony tail and finished pacing. I looked at my phone and then Rose.

                “Call him, the situation will be much easier.” Rose sipped her water.

                I sighed. “It’s not that easy Rose, what should I tell Brendon? Hi, how are you? Oh and by the way I’m pregnant but I don’t know if it’s yours!”

                “Whoa don’t get hot headed with me! I’m not the one who cheated on my man and got pregnant in the mist of both of them!”

                I held my head down and stopped pacing. “You’re right.” I took a seat next to her on the couch and finished her chips for her. “Ugh… I fucked up big time, Ben is definitely going to leave me and I can’t be with Xavier after you two had… never mind but you know what I’m saying.”

                Rose laughed. “Wow for real?”

                “You know I didn’t mean it like that, I was just trying to make a point.”

                “Well be more clear Alondra, ‘cuz somehow I didn’t get you’re point in saying that.”

                “Oh Lord, here we go! You can’t be serious right now.” I stood up from the couch.

                “You tell me, you’re the one still hooked on things I thought we left in the past.”

                I grabbed my phone and walked out of the living room. I really didn’t have time for her emotions and I needed some air. I went to sit on my porch just when I saw Jaden pull up. I rolled my eyes ‘cuz I was about to go off on this dude. He called my phone and looked at me from his window.

                “What do you want sir?” I answered my phone and looked at him.

                “Look, I don’t want no beef, I just want to talk to you.” He smiled at me. Man was he fine! There was no denying that. His looks wanted to make me say fuck everybody so me and him could take a trip to Mars! I sucked my teeth and walked towards his truck. “Get in.”

                I did as I was told and got in, I took in his nice smelling cologne. He had baggy jeans, Jordan’s with a black fitted hat and no shirt. He definitely knew what he was doing, he knew that he was fine. Jaden drove off and put his hand on my thigh. My body relaxed and a thousand bolts of electricity shot through me giving me that sensation. I wanted him to sex me in every position possible. 

                Jaden dropped me off later that night and he told me he will get at me soon. I walked in the house finding Rose in the same spot when I had left only with Ben next to her. I spoke to Ben and nodded my head at Rose. They both spoke and I went straight to my bedroom. I lay in my bed thinking about Jaden, I smiled to myself and shook my head. Never again!

                “Jaden, Jaden, Jaden.” I said to myself.

                “Jaden what?” Rose walked into my room.

                “Do you know how to knock?”

                “Well your door was open and I heard you mention the father of my child name so… Jaden what?”

                “Nothing.” I sat up on my bed.

                “So why were you with him? I did see you hop in his car I thought y’all had beef?”

                “We do, he took me to see Xavier that’s all.” I lied.

                “Oh did you tell him you’re pregnant?”

                “I was going to but no, not yet.”

                Rose got up to leave. “You have to tell someone besides me, I’m going out for a while with Ben.” She left my room and I thought about what she said. I got a secret!

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                Weeks had passed while Brendon and I weren’t on speaking terms because of our breakup. It didn’t matter to me, he already knew who I ran back to after we called it quits. He didn’t breakup with me because of the news, it was because I told him about my run in was X. Rose belly was extra big now, I thought she was going to pop any day now although she was 7 months and here I am five months pregnant. My wish came true, and it was indeed that I was carrying a girl.

                Working at the Millenium Hilton hotel had me beat every day.  I’ve only been working here for two weeks, being that I was pregnant they had me doing assistance. I sat at the desk counting down the minutes before I get to leave which was in one hour and time got slower every time I looked at the clock. My phone vibrated when I got a message from X.

                Can I pick up my favorite girls from work?

                Sure. Be here on time I’m off @ 8.

                Alright. Rub my baby for me (smile) I love u.

                Lol you drive me crazy! I love u too.

                I put my phone back in my pocket and rubbed my hand over my belly. X was crazy about this baby that we didn’t even know. He said he’ll take care of her even if she isn’t his. We’ll sit in my house until wee hours of the morning thinking up baby names. I snapped out of my day dream when Brendon rung my desk bell.

                “May I help you?” I looked him up and down.

                “Nope. Listen here stop the bullshit Alondra, I want you and you want me and I’ll do whatever it takes to get you back ya feel me? That’s our baby you carrying we can’t bring another life in this world living like this.” Brendon paused and looked at me. Oh boy! I thought to myself. “I love you.”

                I didn’t know what to say we were over and here he pouring his heart out to me. I smiled at him letting him know that I had nothing to say to him. He rubbed his hand over his face clearly frustrated. He grabbed my face and kissed my lips before he left. I looked up at the ceiling thinking I was about to see the light.

                X made sure I made it home safely. When I got there Rose was on the couch sleeping. She knew I hated when anybody slept on my couch. She was lucky I was letting her lived there. My house was pretty roomy when Brendon brought it for me, I welcomed Rose with open arms. I poked Rose on her nose and she jumped up.

                “Damn what time is it?” she stretched out.

                “Time for you to get off my couch, you do have a bed ya know?” I sat down my purse and took off my shoes. “Use it.”