Angels in Hell (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 32

June 3rd, 2021

Dear Harry,

I've always wanted to get rid of our old car from the moment I saw it. It was hideous. No joke. I felt like taking a hammer and beating it. Yeah, it was that ugly.

I'm not sure why it took so long for me to get a new car. I guess it was sort of because I was waiting to get a good job so I could actually afford a nice car. Although, I think when we got the new car I was working at Toys R Us. Right. "Good Job"

Oh, and for your information, I was not talking about the yellow car when I said you got one thing right in the car after we bought it. I was talking about loving you more than anything in the world. I'm glad that you feel the same way. I don't know what I'd do if you didn't. However, you were right about it being an AWESOME car.

Just to let you know, Niall came over the other day and we began to talk about the letters. I hope you don't mind. I also plan on giving the letters you wrote to Mr. Malik and Liam to them. I already gave Niall his. He liked it.

Niall told me something interesting. He told me that you said to him once that because of me, you feel like you have something to live for. I honestly don't really know what to say. Do you really think that if you don't have me, you wouldn't have anything to live for? Nothing that makes living worth it? Because truthfully, I feel the same way.

Always,
Louis

P.S. Congratulations to White Eskimos for winning the battle of the bands. I never congratulated you. I'm very proud of you, Hazza.

June 4th, 2022
Alternate Universe

I sit in front of the closet. It's become a routine of mine. Every afternoon after work, I go to Harry's room and read another letter. I've been doing that for over a year now. Harry turned 15 a few months ago. I so badly wished that I could call him and tell him happy birthday. I knew if I did that, however, I would get in trouble. But I sang the "Happy Birthday" song on the exact time he was born anyways. I didn't care if he could hear me or not.

In the past year, I talked to Eleanor every once in a while. I don't know why, but it just seems awkward around her. I like being only friends with her. She doensn't seem to feel the same way. She is always flirting with me and hugging me constantly. I don't feel that way about her. Never have. Never will.

Work is actually fun for me. I always play Harry's favorite songs like "Smile" by Uncle Kracker, "Both of Us" by Taylor Swift and B.O.B. (the song apparently reminds him of us), and "Sweet Disposition" by The Tempur Trap. He has many favorite songs. I hope when I play his favorite songs or make an inside joke, that he knows that he is at least on my mind. That I still think about him even a year later. Hopefully, he still listens to the station. Even if he doesn't, when I talk into that mic in the studio, I still imagine that I am talking to him. It makes me feel more comfortable with speaking on the radio. Sometimes if I am alone in the studio, I close my eyes and I imagine him in front of me. Except I still only see him as the sweet 13 year old that he was when he left only with longer hair like Niall described him.

But by now, he's changed even more than when Niall last saw him. I try to even imagine what he looked like in The X Factor, but a tad bit younger looking. Once I have this image of Harry in my head, I can see him. I speak to him like I always would. Except, I don't ask questions. I know he won't answer back obviously. I always smile thinking that he might be listening. I pull out a letter and rip open the envelope. Everytime I open a new letter, I feel like a child on Christmas morning ripping open a present because I know that it is new and exciting. Everytime, I don't know what Harry will say.

However, I know that he will say something sweet that will make me say "aww" out loud. Or maybe even make me laugh. Or cry. Possibly all three of those things. I guess I'll find out if this is one of those letters.

August 21st, 2019

Dear Louis,

The day we went to Liam Payne's concert was probably one of my favorite days. I couldn't believe that we were actually going to one. I was (and still am) a very big fan of Liam. When I showed you that picture in the magazine that day I asked if we could go to the concert, you seemed excited suddenly. And to find out that you were in the boyband with him on the other world was SO COOL!

During his song "Moments," I noticed that you were singing along. I kept wondering how you knew it because he said that it was never heard before. Plus, you didn't ever listen to his music before that night. Then, I began to connect the dots and thought that maybe it was a song you and your boyband did on the other world. It's the only thing I could think of. Am I right? I'm right, right?

Honestly, that was only one of my favorite days with you. I can't choose. Just like Niall when he's trying to choose his favorite food, I can't choose my favorite day with you. Everyday is a new adventure. I love living the adventures with you.

The other day, I was talking to one of my friends. We were talking about our future and if we'd ever fall in love. I know that it's a little soon talking about all of this stuff because I'm only twelve, but it was just randomness between me and my friend. My friend asked me a quite interesting question. It was, "Would you rather date for the rest of your life or settle down with one person you've been through everything with?"

I thought that the answer was simple. In fact, Liam Payne once answered this in an interview and had the same answer as me. I'd rather settle down with the one person I've been through everything with. The person who I've had many adventures with and have many more to come. Like you. Maybe I can find someone like you when I'm older.

Yours truly,
Harry