The secret side of me

Chapter 8

Chapter 8~Layla's pov

Since the car ride I haven't stopped thinking about everything from my past, that I swore to leave in the past. Everything from the bullies at school to my parents to everthing thats happened since I've been in. All the evil and horrible things that Ed has ever done to me. I couldn't stop the tears from coming the more I thought about it and I refuse to let Niall see me cry so I've been in my room for a while now. I guess I should go down now since he's all alone.

When I go down I see him sitting on the couch watching T.V with a bag of chips next to him. When he looks up at me I could tell he knows I was crying. I sat on the couch next to him and kept my eyes on the screen in front of me even though I'm not paying attention. I don't want to look at him, I don't want him to see my face that's read from crying,even if he already knows that I've been crying.

"Layla, can we start over. I didn't exactly leave a great impression last time." I scoff at his words. I look at him and see his big blue eyes filled with hope. I sighed but nodded."Thank you!" He said hugging me." So let's get to know eachother than since, you know, we didn't really get to the first time." He said awkwardly. I laughed at how wierd he was being.

"Why are you so nervous around me?I'm not going to hurt you that's kinda why your here, so no one hurts you." I said like it was the most obvious thing ever.

"Why did you do it." He asked suddenly serious." Why are you protecting me from them. I don't deserve it after all those things I have done to you. So why don't you want them to hurt me. They already did. If I was you I would be happy that they did and I would be even happier if they just killed me, so why do you care?" He asked playing with his hands. I put my hand under his chin pulling his face up so he was looking at me.

"Don't think like that. I know you don't like doing those things to me. Your face says it all, you hate it. I know you would never do those things willingly you are way to innocent. You aren't like the rest of the boys. The other boys don't care about me they don't feel sorry for me they think it is funny. It's just that if Ed and them got you they wouldn't kill you right away. They will make you beg for them to long before they actually will. I've seen it before. I couldn't let them do those horrible things to you."I say the last part in almost a whisper. I look away from him picturing it.

"When? W-What happened?" He asked unsure."You don't have to answer if you don't want to" He said. I shook my head not wanting to talk about it especaily with him. I look away and blink away the on coming tears before he can see them. I don't know what is wrong with me, I never cry. I try to change the subject as soon as possible.

"C'mon we should go to bed." I say getting up off the couch."We have school tomorrow."

"Wait what?" He asked looking confused.

"Yeah you have to go to school. We aren't just going to stop doing everything. You just have to be more careful. But still go on and do everything you would if this never happened."

"Bu-"

"No it's fine. I'll be fine. They will think something is up if you don't anyways. It's nothing I'm not used to anyways." I can feel him tense next to me at my words."Just act like we never talked but after school you have to meet me behind the school and make sure no one sees you with me. Ok?" He nods and we walk up to our rooms together.

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I walked up to my locker with my head down trying to not be spotted by Harry or someone like that. I don't want to have a run in with them today if that's possible. I know Naill would hate himself for hurting me even if I tell him it's fine. I can see it in his face when he looks at me, how much he hates himself for that. And then theres something else too that I can't quite tell what it is.

I make it to my locker with out being noticed. Thank God! When I have grabbed my stuff I closed my locker and saw Josh standing on the other side staring at me. I jumped back in shock.

"What the hell are you doing. God you almost gave me a heart attack." I said as we started to walk to lunch together.

"Good thats what I was going for! Now, let's get out of here."He said looking at me with a cheeky grin on his face.

"Like ditch school?" I ask sounding astonished."No. nononono you know I can't do that I can't miss class!" We had stopped walking by now and were standing in the middle of the crowded hall way.

"C'mon you have a 4.0 you can skip school for once! It's not even the whole day!" I was ready to object but I looked behind him and saw the boys coming towards me. I looked behind Liam and saw Niall in the back looking worried at me.

I grabbed Josh's arm when they were in arms reach of me."Alright let's go!" I yelled as I sprinted to the entrance of the school yanking Josh along with me. He looked at me like I was crazy but didn't object. We started to walk away and I could tell he was tense and stressed over something.

"So where are we going" I asked him

"Ummm, I don't really know actually. How about ice cream?"

"Ok, sounds good." I said turning the corner to walk in the direction of the ice cream parlor.We walked in and I ordered a mint chocolate chip cone and he oredered the same. After they gave it to us he payed and we went to sit down. He was still being a little awkward and tense so I decided to speak up.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked him concerned.

" Ummm, it's nothing it's just that ... We will always be friends right? Like no matter what happened we will always stay like this?" He said moving uncomfortably in his seat.

"Of course." I said reaching over the table and grabing his hand reassuringly."Nothing will ever happen to us. We will always be best friends. I promise." I said and I could feel him relax a little bit. "Why do you ask" I said wondering what made him ask such a wierd question.

"Oh umm nothing." He said looking down at our hands. After that I decided to just drop the subject. The rest of the time we just talked about nonsense until we finished our ice creams.When we were done I checked the time as we were walking out of the ice cream parlor. Oh shit I forgot about Niall!

"Hey Josh we have to get back to our cars come on let's hurry" I asked sounding rushed and wierd. We started to spped walk back to the school parking lot at the back of the school.

"Hey Layla, umm theres a party tonight and I know it's a week night and we have school tomorrow but I'm going to be there so ummm do you want to come?" He asked sounding unsure.

"No I can't I have to go to Nick's house."

"Who's nick?" He asked annoyed

"Ummm, my... cousin?"

"ok? Well can you come after? Please? I'm going to be there and we won't be there that late promise."

"Umm, maybe."I said not wanting to striaght out say no.

"Alright I'm going to say that means yes! Bye Layla." He said as we cam right up to my car. He pulled me into a tight hug. When he finally let go he grabbed me and smashed his lips into mine.My eys widened in shock but I still kissed back for some reason. He pulled away quickly muttering an apolagy adn running offleaving me standing in front of my car super confused.