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Promise

Levi's POV

I walked down the hall to the room where Erens band was waiting and I couldn't stop the thoughts of Eren running through my head.

His beautiful brown hair.

His aqua green eyes.

Even his odd pointy smile all seemed so endearing, yet so out of reach. All I wanted was for him to open up to me. I didn't know what was keeping him from doing so, but I had officially made it my mission to crack his shell.

I also wanted Eren to know me. Currently he barely knew anything that personal about me, and I was willing to share, as long as he did.

I was waiting for him, but who's to say he isn't waiting for me. Shit. Emotions were so complicated, no wonder I had cut them off.

I opened the door to be greeted with Eyebrows and the three shitty brats I invited to be a part of Erens band. I slipped in and leaned against the wall. I overheard the pig named Sasha talking to Armin.

"Did you hear 'bout those guys who totally ravaged the Central Memorial" She whispered yet I still heard. I almost smiled. That was so fun to do.

"Yeah, the pictures they showed on the news this morning were awesome, the art was incredible" Armin whispered in reply. I glanced over at the one who hadn't done anything since I entered. Her thick black hair fell into her pale face, she stared forward, unblinking.

I let my gaze drift away. Creepy.

Erwin almost jumped, and I almost sighed in relief when Eren opened the door wearing a new set of clothes.

I could visibly see the excitement of the band at meeting Eren. They made their introductions. And Eren kindly greeted them back, though when his eyes drifted to Mikasa, he froze.

His skin went even paler than usual, which I didn't know was possible, even paler than when Hanji asked the question. Wait, why did he get so shell-shocked at that question, he wouldn't have- No. Eren was one of the most innocent and carefree people I knew, he didn't have the mental capability to murder someone, unless it was self defence.

Or an accident, something he couldn't control. Was he living with the pain of that on his shoulders? How could I not notice. He always had a conflicted look in his eyes. A cross between sadness and loneliness and guilt.

How did this not click earlier?

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After meeting Mikasa, Eren had barely said a word. Did he know her from somewhere? Why did he have that reaction?

I took a glance at him. He was shaking slightly and staring at Mikasa with what looked like disbelief, and fear. Shit. I couldn't stand seeing him this way. I felt a pain in my chest just looking at his weakened body and knowing that there is a tortured mind underneath.

I pushed off of the wall and mad emu way over to Eren. I reached over and tapped his shoulder. His head darted frantically in my direction. As if he hadn't noticed my presence.

"C'mon Eren" I whispered in his ear. He shivered. I helped him stand up and glanced at the worried looks in Armin and Sasha's eyes, not Mikasa though.

"Sorry, we will be back" I said while walking Eren out the door and closing it behind me. I brought him in an unsteady trek to the bathroom.

"Eren, what's-" Eren leaned forward and wrapped his long arms around me. I felt him shaking underneath me. I slowly wrapped my arms around the taller boy in what I hoped was a comforting manner. He sniffled. Gross, but I would let it pass. After all, it was Eren.

"S-sorry Levi" He managed to say through the tears I could tell were running down his face. I pulled back.

"For what?" He looked at me like I was crazy.

"For being so weak, for crying over everything, for being such a pitiful hu- person" He said as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. I glared at him.

"Eren Jaeger, don't you ever say that about yourself! You are so much more than you say, so don't ever, ever! Say that you are weak and pitiful!" I yelled. He looked at me with wide eyes. Shit. I scared him. My mouth parted a bit in shock of my previous actions.

"I'm sorry Eren I didn't mean to-" He looked at me with tears evident in his glistening eyes. A single tear escaped.

He smiled, albeit weak, and sad, he still smiled.

"Thanks Levi" He looked like he was about to say something more, but he closed his mouth and looked down at his shoes, tapping an unknown beat with them. He looked back up with a sad look in his eyes.

"But you don't quite know me" He said so sadly I could have cried. What was Eren keeping from me?

"But that's it Eren, I want to" I said quietly, looking down with my cheeks warm. Its not that I really wanted to know Eren, I needed to know Eren. I just couldn't stand not knowing what made him sad and lonely, because if I didn't know, I couldn't help.

"Oh" He didn't want to tell me. I continued looking at my shoes in sadness. He wouldn't tell me, why would he? I was just his manager, nothing more as much as I wished I was.

"Alright" I looked up sharply. What did he say. He said alright. Would he tell me? Or was he just acknowledging what I wanted? Eren walked over to the sinks and stared in the mirror, hands gripping the edge of the countertop. I could visibly see him take a deep breath. He looked down.

"I will tell you, I promise, I will tell you everything" He said harshly, as if forcing himself to hold up the promise, what was so bad that it tore him up this bad?

"But can you wait till I'm ready?" I smiled where he couldn't see me.

Eren you have no idea how long I would wait.

As long as I was waiting for you.

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