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Suspicions

Erens POV

I watched carefully as Levi eyed the white mug with a sad and disgusted look, worry tearing me apart from the inside. I get why he was struggling, I get why he wouldn't want to eat, I had the same struggle when I was starting off.

But can't he see that he's dying! Can't he see that his hunger will rip him apart from the inside out! Can't he see that this is what he is now?! That this is all he will ever be?

Why did I change him? Why would I subject my only friend, the- the only person who I have ever loved, to this? There was nothing desirable about it, unless you were a power loving bastard who didn't care about killing. I know I wouldn't have chosen this life, yet I had no hesitation with sinking my hungry teeth into his piece long coloured neck at his word.

And now, he has been starving himself. If he died, I would kill myself too, it's the only thing I could do to deal with the guilt that would hurt me more than death itself would. 

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Levi seemed to be a bit healthier now after he had eaten, I could still hear the rumblings in his stomach, but they were just fainter. I sighed and made my way to where he was perched on the couch, my laptop in front of him.

"Hey Levi, he have to head in at some point today, acctually I'm suprises they haven't called us yet" I stated incredulously, because we haven't made an appearance since the concert which was like a day and a half ago.

"Yeah you're right" live mumbled, his face still turned to the laptop. I walked to him and leaned over his shoulder.

"What's so interesting?" He didn't flinch. I was a bit concerned about that until I remembered that he was like me now an would have heard my soft doorsteps and silent breaths.

"There is an article, it was just pose red a couple of minutes ago, I think you may want to read it" I hopped over the couch and sat beside him, so I was basically pressed into his side. I smiled contentedly as I pulled the laptop onto my lap instead.

I am sure you all have heard of Eren Jaeger, the brand new star that rose from one YouTube video. Eren is currently under the Scouting Region record label and is only 19 years old. Though not as many people may know his impromptu band member that doubles as his personal manager, Levi Ackerman. This man performed a duet with Eren on his debut stage that pulled at the strings of many peoples hearts, but that is not it. Speculation has been going around about these two, for example the case of vandalism that occurred around a month and a half ago on the central monument. Some may wonder how this could be related to the closely ministered celebrities. The answer is simple. The face of Levi Ackerman matched the spray painted art under the name of 'Captain'. The police are currently looking into the situation nor more evidence that connect the fiends behind this crime.

"Well shit"

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After Levi and I had sorted ourselves out and gotten dressed we made our way to the lobby where Hangi was sitting on a high stool on an equally high table. She simply watched us as we approached her seemingly moody form.

"Just where have you two been?" She said, pushing her thick lensed glassed up her thin nose. I stole a glance at Levi, he looked uncomfortable, like if he had blood in his body he would be blushing, to be hones I bet I looked the exact same way. Hanji seemed to pick up on the sexually tense atmosphere that had built up between Levi and I as a wolffish grin graced her face and she leaned closer to where we were standing, our faced inches apart.

"Did you guys fuck?" My eyes widened even though I saw her response coming for miles. Levi didn't even look fazed.

"What's it to you brat?" I heard Levi ash quietly from beside me. Hanji turned to face him, like she was about to argue before her defensive face fell.

"Levi are you okay?" I turned to look at the raven haired man, to see if something really was wrong, but he looked completely normal to me. I frowned. "You're like, really pale, and your hair looks different, did you style it differently or something?" Hanji commented and I felt my eyebrows knit themselves together. I had completely forgotten that nobody had seen Levi since I changed him. And if you looked at a then and now comparison he did look quite different, not as drastic of a change as I had, but his cheekbones were more defined, his lips had more colour while his skin had paled a few shades and his hair was naturally styled in an oddly attractive quiff (I was kind of jealous because my hairstyle didn't change).

Realization had dawned on his face, but he was quick to replace it with his usual indifferent facade and casually question what she was talking about as if he thought she was off of her rocker. Hanji seemed frustrated but was quick to brush it off and send us upstairs for a 'chat' with Erwin. Last time I saw him he was sucking Armin's face off in the guys washroom before the concert. I shuddered, the thought crossed my head as to what Armin was up to, I kind of missed him, he was one of the few people that actually treated me like a human, even though now I was far from humanity. 

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When we got up to Erwin's office the door was shut, but Levi and I's ears could very easily pick up on the conversation going on inside.

"-reported scene when you two went out last week?" That was Erwin's voice.

"They-they saw us? Shit Marco what are we gonna do?" A concerned yet somehow caring voice hissed.

"We can't have the press thinking we are in a relationship" a very gentle voice spoke. "It could cause a lot of unnecessary hate"

"I'm not fucking ashamed for loving you Marco! To hell what the publicity says!" The voice from before cried angrily.

"Look, I am not against you two being in a relationship in anyway, but it is up to you what you wish to happen in this situation. Just keep in mind that they do have photos of the more... Intimate side of your relationship. Now I hate to cut this short but I have another meeting" Levi and I looked at each other and drugged right before the frosted glass door opened to reveal a tall boy about my age with ash blonde hair and an equally tall but more scrawny boy with dark hair and freckles. It was Jean and Marco, the famous duo. Wow. It was so cool to see them in person, even if Jeans eyes were red and Marco had hickeys on his neck.

"Levi, Eren come in" Erwin beconed, allowing us to pass through the glass frame where he was waiting, fingers tapping impatiently on his mahogany desk.

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Ayyyyy so that was like 200 words longer than usual but like whatever.

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