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Regret

Levi's POV

Eren was an animal. Both metaphorically and literally. I think I had read in some fantasy novel that vampires ha animalistic tendencies and were actually quite primal creatures, but Eren last night was on a whole different level. I literally lost count of the amp out of times we had to do it last night for him to finally run out of steam. It was hot though. Like so fucking hot, the primal side of Eren was something solely reserved for bed and now I could see why. His animalistic side was something so rough and appealing that I could get hard just thinking about it. I wonder what I will be like in heat... He was a monster, a sexually aroused and extremely attractive monster that turned me on way to much (especially his newfound kink of biting) I have fallen in love with the way his fangs feel... Kind of sadistic, I know. Though to be honest I just think it is a vampire thing, I mean biting is like an everyday thing for us is it not?

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When I came back to my senses after am extreme amount of overstimulization, my body was covered in dried cum and sweat, smelling like sex. I looked around Erens room and it was a mess, the previously white bed sheets were stained with blood from the whole biting thing, many different splotches of cum and sweat. The sheets were also torn in some places when Erens nails had gotten a little sharp. the sun was setting again, a whole day had passed while we were ruthlessly fucking eachother.

I than noticed how Eren wasn't in the room, than I connected the sounds I had tuned out to him, running water and the base of what sounded like a kpop song from the bathroom.

I felt hunger gnaw at my stomach. Almost excruciatingly so, a long, low growl emitted from it.

"Go eat some fucking food Levi!" I heard Eren yell over the sound of music and water, his heightened hearing able to pick up the smallest of noises. I sigh, knowing I needed it but really not wanting to. I dejectedly shuffled my way into the kitchen and stared into the fridge. The fridge that had nothing but blood bags in it. I slowly reached in and pulled it out, feeling myself begin to salivate at it's glistening red appearance. Then, feeling disgusted with myself for being appealed by the thick red substance, I dropped it onto the counter. I had already eaten blood, but I felt that it was different because it was Eren. Someone who knows what I am and all the desires and needs that come with it. He was also Eren. A person that I know I can trust to help me and accept me.

He accepted me even knowing what I am.

He accepted the fact that I was a killer even before this whole thing. He accepted that I was a mess. He accepted everything their was to hate about me when no one else did. And I loved him for it.

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Eren walked out of the bathroom and found me staring at the blood bag in a mix of longing and disgust. I'm sure he was so confused as I remembered how he told me when he was turned, he dove straight into the deep end and accepted what he was. He even had to kill someone due to his seemingly insatiable hunger, and here I was, struggling over a bag of blood. Hesitating on a path I was being led down when Eren had to walk it all by himself.

I was simply weaker than he was.
I felt a cold hand on my shoulder. His skin had returned to its normal freezing temperature.

"I know it's hard, but you have to eat" Eren said quietly, his melodic voice laced with concern and sympathy.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have bitten you, it was stupid" he paused a look of physical pain crossing his face.

"I am so sorry I did this to you" he said quietly before turning and opening the fridge to pull out a blood bag of his own, ripping the top open with his teeth.

"Eren, I am not blaming you. It was my decision and I don't regret it" I said, looking into his now crimson eyes due to the blood that was just introduced to his system.

"Well you will if you starve yourself" he said quietly, looking down at his feet, blood bag clenched and empty at his side.

I looked down at my bare feet, knowing he was right. From what I have heard from Eren, starvation is excruciating, leading any scent, smell or appearance of blood to set you off into a nearly uncontrollable frenzy.

I didn't want that to happen to me, because than I would be the same as I used to be. A real monster, a killer. And I couldn't bear the thought of being that way again.

"Please eat something Levi, it tastes good I swear" His eyes, now returning to blue looked hopeful but sad. I felt horrible for making him regret the decision to bite me. I also felt bad for making him so concerned about my currently non-existent eating habits. I felt so guilty for being so hopeless and whiny. Eren deserved better.

I closed my eyes for a brief second, noticing something different even within the small action.

You know those sunspots you get behind your eyelids when you close them? Well turns out vampires cannot even have that. I open my eyes quickly at the oddly comforting darkness behind them.

In the few seconds I had my eyes shut Eren had opened a blood bag and filled a mug with the glistening red substance, and I hated to say but it looked so appealing. Erens clear blue eyes met mine and he gently nudged the white mug in my direction.

I swallowed deeply, a lump forming in my throat, a growl in my stomach.

I will do it for Eren. I would do anything for Eren.

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GUYS WE HAVE BREACHED 7K I REPEAT WE HAVE BREACHED 7K!!

I honestly love you all so much and even 1k is more than I could have asked for so I am actually amazed that this book got so far. 7k may be a small feat for so authors and books out there, but to me it means the world because I am not that good at writing and I feel to young to have had so many people see my work. I am so thankful for all of your support on this book and I hopefully will continue to make chapters that satisfy you.

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