Only you (A ThatcherJoe/ Youtuber fanfic)

Chapter 16

Zoe's POV:

Tanya and I arrived at the doctors and parked the car. We headed in and I gave in my details before taking a seat. "So how come Alfie's not here? I mean, he knows. Right?" "He does, it's just... complicated." "Oh okay." And that's when the awkward Alfie conversation stopped. Thank god.

"You excited?" Tanya asked breaking the silence once again. "Yeah actually. I've waited so long for this, now it's finally happening." I squealed. "I kind of want a baby soon. Everyone thinks i'd be a great mum, and Jim an amazing dad. I'm just not sure if Jim and I are ready." "I think you are Tan. So is Jim. If me and Alfie are, you two definitely are!" "Maybe." She agreed.

"Zoe Sugg?" My doctor called and Tan and I stood up and headed in. I took a seat on the bed and the appointment began. A while later, me and Tan sensed something was not right as we watched the doctor's actions. "Excuse me? Is something wrong?" Tan asked her. The doctor grabbed some tissue and wiped the gel off my stomach.

"Could we talk privately Miss Sugg?" She asked. "What's wrong?! Anything you want to say, she is staying with me." I was now worried and panicking about what was happening and just wanted answers. "Okay Miss. I'm sorry, but I couldn't find a heartbeat. Your baby is dead." I began to well up and Tan took me into her arms. I was heartbroken. What would Alfie say? He wanted this just as much as me.

We left the doctor's and just stayed silent. "Are you going to tell Alfie?" She asked. "Yeah, can we stop off now actually?" I replied. "Of course." I turned the corner and headed for Alfie and Caspar's flat.

Jim's POV:

We finally arrived at the hospital and went straight towards the cancer ward, which made me even more nervous. The thought of maybe having to come here all the time if I was positive. We were seen rather quickly and the tests and scans were done with. "You're free to go guys! Your results should be ready some time next week!" We thanked the doctors and headed homeward.

"You got to go to the station?" I asked John. "No, I actually am going to meet someone for dinner. Any chance you could drop me off at gleam?" He asked.  "Sure, it's close to Joe's too, so that's good." It was now about 5:30 and i'd heard nothing about the girls yet which meant I had time. I dropped John at gleam and then headed back to Joe's.

"Hi Joe. Sorry i'm back late." I apologised as I walked through the door. "It's good, I was just about to text you. The girls are getting the food now. What do you want?" "Katsu curry please bud." He nodded and texted the girls back.

Zoe's POV:

We pulled up to the flat and I let out a sigh. "It's okay Zo. Take your time. You just lost your baby, it's okay to allow time to process it." Tan tried to comfort me. I nodded and opened the car door. We walked up and she knocked on the door and seconds later, Caspar let us in. "Hey you guys! How are you?  Alfie!" He spoke and I just wanted to cry. "Been better." I groaned. "What's up?" He pulled me into a tight hug before pulling me towards the sofa to sit. "It's fine, I just need to talk to Alfie." He then turned up at perfect timing.

I took him to his room and a worried look lay on his face. "What's up little one?" He asked taking me in his strong arms. I sat on his bed and he soon joined me. "Well Alfie, I don't know how to say this so i'm just going to say it... The bab-y." I was now sobbing uncontrollably.

"What about the baby Zo?" He had now embraced me into another comforting hug. "We-we.. We lost it." He pulled away and began to cry. "Ho-w could this happen?! I bet it was all your fault Zoe!" "Sometimes it just happens Alfie. I couldn't exactly help it!" This had now turned into a fight. But now wasn't the right time.

"There has got to be a reason behind it you stupid bitch and I bet it's you!" He pulled me up to my feet and hit me. I was now crying harder and just couldn't take him anymore. I ran out the room and into the living room. "Tan let's get out of here." I said. She stood up and we headed out the door. "Bye Caspar." I said sadly and slammed the door shut.

"You okay Zo?" Tan held me in her arms once again. "Did he hit you?!" She asked looking at my hand printed cheek. I looked down and nodded shamefully. "Look at me." She lifted my chin so I was looking into her eyes. "You deserve better than him. He should never do that. He should never blame you, and neither should you. So let's go get some food and head back to Joe's yeah?" I nodded and started the car while she texted Joe using my phone.

We arrived at the restaurant ordered the food and headed back. Jim was extremely quiet along with myself. Nobody knew why he was though. He just looked... lost. "Jim? You okay?" I asked and Tan looked at him worried and hugged him. "Yeah, just distracted." "Zoe?" Tan asked and I nodded.

"I have something to tell you guys." I sighed and felt a tear fall down my face. "When we went to the appointment... well, I-" I then got interrupted by a screaming Tanya checking her phone. "Marcus and Naomi just got engaged!" She screamed and I took out my phone to text them.

"What were you saying Zoe?" Jim asked. "Oh yeah, sorry Zoe." Tan apologised. "Well I..." I looked over at Tan for help. "Zoe lost the baby." She said sadly.  "Aww Zoe!" Jim said sympathetically and came to give me a hug as I cried into his chest. He was like my big brother. As well as basically being my best friend.

"I'm so sorry." He said. "It's okay. Alfie didn't take it well." I said saddened. "What do you mean? You already spoke to him?" He asked as he pulled away and Joe looked surprised. "Yeah, just after the appointment. He slapped me so I ran out." Jim pulled me back into his chest and Joe stood up and walked towards the door. "Joe? What are you doing?" I asked concerned. "Going to talk to Alfie." I got out of Jim's grip once again and walked towards Joe. "Don't try and stop me." And with that, he walked out.

"Oh yeah, sorry about that Jim." I giggled, looking in the mirror and wiping my face of the mascara that had run. He looked at what I was on about and laughed too. "It's fine, don't worry about it. I don't mind." There was now foundation, eyeliner and mascara all over his white t-shirt.

"I'm going to go try catch up to him. See if I can stop him from doing anything stupid. He shouldn't be too far." He grabbed his jacket and went out the door.