Only you (A ThatcherJoe/ Youtuber fanfic)

Joe Flashback Special Part 3

A/N The song attached is a song by Ed Sheeran called Even My Dad Does Sometimes. I love this song and I think it links to the specials very much. (Except the dad part.)

This is the last Flashback Special btw. Regular chapters will follow.

Joe's POV:

We pulled up outside of Mom's and I let out a long breath. What if she didn't want me? I then randomly began to tear up and the first tear fell. "Hey, it'll be fine Joe. She will want to have you around. She can't just push you out of her life. You're her son and she only left for the same reason as you." She took my hand reassuringly. I nodded and we got out of the car and walked up the driveway.

"Joe! What are you doing here?" She smiled excitedly as she took me in for a hug. "Can I ask you something?" I asked, nervously. "Of course baby! Come in." She ushered us inside her house. "Wow it's nice." I smiled. "So what's up honey?" She asked. "Well..." I looked over at Sam for help. "Joe was wondering if he could stay with you. He's not exactly.. On the best terms with Graham." Sam smiled and I mouthed a thank you. "Of course you can Joe! I'm so happy to have you back!" She laughed and I hugged her. "Thank you Mom." I grinned once again. "Well.. we can get your stuff now if you like but can I ask what happened?" She asked and I looked nervously towards Sam. "Some of his stuff is in my car." Sam beamed and we headed out. "Can I tell you later mom? I'm just not comfortable talking about it right now." She nodded and we went to grab the stuff from the car. We'd finally finished grabbing my things and putting them into my new room.

"What about Zoe? She'll be wondering why I moved out." I asked. "Well, I'm still wondering why you moved out and you can tell her. You'll see her tomorrow." Mom laughed. "Okay." I smiled and Sam had to leave so we waved her off and sat down for dinner. 

"So... are you going to tell me or..." Mom implied. "Well... I tried to..." I began to tear up and she held me in her arms. "Tried to what Joe?" She grew worried. "Su--sui-cide." I stuttered quietly and she gasped. "Oh Joe. Why?" She asked. "Everything mom, you and dad, school, James." I sighed. "So they gave me these at the hospital." I took out the pills. "But you have to keep them." I continued. "Why didn't your father tell me?" She asked angered. "I don't know, but we fell out because he was trying to control my life and so I didn't want to go back there." I sniffled. "Thanks for telling me Joe." She smiled. "I'm just going to call him." She stood and took her phone.

I put in my earphones and played my music on full. Blink-182 began to play.

I took her out. It was a Friday night

I wore cologne to get the feeling right

We started making out, and she took off my pants

But then I turned on the TV

And that's about the time she walked away from me

Nobody likes you when you're 23

And are still more amused by TV shows

What the hell is ADD?

My friends say I should act my age

What's my age again?

What's my age again?

Why would I do this to my family? To me? I regret it so much. I broke our family and I don't think it can be repaired. Or could it?