A Bunch of Haikyuu!! X Reader

Hinata Shouyou: Used

WARNING: suicidal actions.

"Thanks (y/n), keep this up and you'll stay safe." said the male.

You just bowed at the male and at his group and left.

"Y'know, you could have taken the pain instead of being used..."  said a tiny voice in your head.

You acknowledged the voice and replied, "Yeah, I could've, but I'm not a fighter..."

You just sighed in discontent and headed home.

~ Flashback ~

It all started on the first day of school. Immediately, you were targeted by bullies and ended up getting beat up. You were used to getting hit, but you sure didn't like it. You sat on the ground near the lockers and stared at the ground. You heard footsteps but didn't move. You were like a broken doll, slumped against the lockers. The footsteps stopped in front of you and you looked up. You looked up to see a male offering you a hand. You took the hand and he pulled you up. He offered you protection if you let him and his crew copy your homework answers.

"Either pain or being used..." you thought to yourself.

You ended up agreeing to the terms in fear of getting beat up again.

~ End of Flashback ~

You weren't always this weak. When you were a child, everything was amazing. You found life to be an adventure and worth exploring. Each day you would greet with a smile and you were happy. But, as you got older, everything got colder. Each day you felt like you were trapped in an eternal hell. You felt like society was pushing you to be something you're not. You ended up forcing fake smiles and felt empty. You felt like you were mute, and no one seemed like they accepted you. Life wasn't an adventure anymore, it was just a lie. You felt like your whole life was a lie. Trying your best not to do suicidal things, you ended up portraying your thoughts in drawings and writing. You used music as a temporary escape from the fake, distorted world you lived in. But that couldn't stop you. You ended up cutting yourself and found yourself in a world of self-hate.

~ Present Day, Lunch Time ~

You sat alone, again, in a table in the far back of the cafeteria. You sighed as you ate your lunch.

Hinata and Kageyama just got out of the line and were looking for a place to sit. Hinata looked around and you caught his eye.

"Hey, Kageyama."

Kageyama looked down at the small person below him.

"How about we sit over there?"

Hinata pointed to where you were sitting, alone. You looked like you were deep in thought as you nibbled on your lunch.

"Sure, I don't care," replied Kageyama.

Hinata walked over and sat at your table. You acknowledged his presence but didn't say a word.

"Hi there!" greeted Hinata.

You looked up at him, but then looked back down at your lunch.

"I'm Hinata, and this is my friend Kageyama."

You looked up at the boy and to his friend.

"Shut up dumba$$, I'm not your friend." said the raven-haired boy.

"Kageyama... Not now..." hissed the boy named Hinata.

You giggled.

"Wait a minute," you thought to yourself, "Did I just giggle?"