-Joel-
[ Late December]
' Her eyes have this unspoken language, this ethereal communication only Jade and I understand.
When my psychologist said that love was much more than an attraction, much more than just a crush, I never knew how scary it would feel.
Tonight I took a huge step towards this 'healing' she keeps talking about, without even knowing it.
I took Biscocho to the most sacred place I've known. I went back...it looked just as breathtaking as ever.
Or it could've been the shine in Jade's eyes, when she looked at the fireflies glow in the dark, as the windy night played with her hair.
It's sacred to me, because it was the last place my mother and I went to before 'it' happened.
I miss her more than ever, and the blame falls on my shoulders every time I think back to that night.
The lake itself brought back way too many memories...way too many nightmares that still haunt me.
Tonight I realized how much control Jade has over me..and it's fucking scary. It's fucking scary to think that I might lose myself into this, and not find a way out.
But before I could even screw up, she made it pretty clear she wasn't ready for a relationship.
As neither am I.
Not yet.
Her heart needs time to heal, and I , well I'm just not too sure I wanna settle down already....
So we're going 'free style ' meaning, we're not allowed to 'date' anyone, but still hangout with whom ever we please, but at the same time, it gives me hope, because this means I somehow have little control over her.
Knowing Sebastian can't have her, makes me grin like an idiot.
Only problem is, I can't control my feelings around her. I'm impulsive and they control me.
I want her all to myself.
-Joel '
ELLO! Ik this is super late, but I'm pretty much juggling SO many things ATM, and it sucksss to be me.
Ugh to the moon and back :)
Anyways, Do u guys like Joel's journal entries? I feel like these give u guys an insight on his past...but ^_^ hope ya liked the mini chapter! I'll try to update soon!
-mistiquecherry🙈🍉
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DEVUÉLVEME MI CORAZÓN(Joel Pimentel/CNCO)
Fanfiction"Goodbye . Tonight was truly magical, and it'll forever stay in my heart, But I have to go!" I tell him. "Will I ever see you again?! Please come back! Can I at least get your number?" Says the boy who just stole my first kiss, as he runs after me...
