Made In New York (Monterèal Series #1 Book 1 )

Chapter 6

Quit

My world seemed to stop for awhile. Me, quitting the activities that I love to do because it can cause me my life. Strangely, I didn't cry nor mourned about it. Maybe, kapag nagsink in na ng tuluyan ang mga nangyayari ay baka doon ako matauhan.

Having this disease means I might not live normally just like those of my age. Instead of enjoying the night life, outdoor adventures, traveling abroad, I am picturing myself, enjoying the day light, hospital appointments and daily travel on hospitals. It was awful.

Ngayon na alam ko na ang diagnosis ko, I'm grounded to any activities na nakakatrigger ng another attack. What I experienced is a heart attack, my first one. Buti at mild lang iyon at hindi naglead sa stroke.

At ngayon, I'm working on my speech kila Rian at Coach Amy on
' I have to quit, I might die '.

I was gathering all the courage to say those sakanila. I will leave, not because I want to but because I have to.

I spotted them sa covered gym. Alam kong nagtataka sila kung bakit hindi pa ako nakabihis. I walked closer kasabay non ang pagpapanic ko. I can't!

" Sapphira! " tawag saakin ng isa kong teammate, kinawayan ko siya at ngitian.

" Why aren't you dressed? " tanong saakin ni Rian. Parang may kung ano sa nakabara sa lalamunan ko na para bang ayaw kong sabihin ang mga salita. This it, I have to do this.

" Can we talk for a bit? " Tumingin siya saakin sandali at tumango. I know deep inside, may pag-aalinlangan 'yan.

" Sure " sagot niya.

Pumunta kami sa labas ng gym at nagkibitbalikat siya nang huminto kami sa paglalakad.

" What are we going to talking about? " pagsisimula niya.

I sighed and closed my eyes
" I quit " tumingin ako sa gilid para hindi makita ang reaksyon niya at narining ko siyang huminga ng malamim.

" Why? " nakikita ko ang disappointment sa mga mata niya at sa mukha niya. 

" I can't continue it, Rian. Just please understand, You will not understand me even if I explain it, you might not believe it as well "

Humalukipkip siya at ngumiwi
" Yes Sapphira, thank you for letting me, infact us down! " tinulak niya ako at tinalikuran.

Naglakad akong nanghihinayang sa soccerfield at nakita ko agad si Coach Amy na nakaupo sa may bleachers. After Rian, I have to this again.

I consolidated myself, mas matured naman si coach Amy kay Rian. I know she will understand.

Nilapitan ko siya at tinabihan
" I have something to tell " Pagsisimula ko, tinignan niya ako at ngumiti.

" I have to quit " sabi ko at tumingin sa aking mga daliri, hinawakan niya ito.

" I understand your reasons, Maxon told me already " napaangat ako ng tingin.

" H-how? " tumawa siya ng bahagya .

" Maxon's my son's friend " she answered

Huminga ako ng malalim " Please don't tell others about it, please Ms. Amy especially my friends "
Tumango siya at ngitian ako.

" I'm quite saddened about the news because I just had a loss in my team but I understand " hinawakan ko din ang kanyang kamay " I promise to get healed and come back here " ngumiti siya at niyakap ako. Will surely miss cheerleading so much.