Made In New York (Monterèal Series #1 Book 1 )

Chapter 50

Manila, Philippines

" Teacher, paano po ito? " tanong nang isa kong estyudante.

Since that day, Nagbago ang buhay ko. Bumalik ulit ako dito sa Pilipinas, to rebuild myself. Masyado na akong naging masama at nagpadala sa emosyon ko, This is the only thing I can do, to get better.

I haven't heard anything from Theo, maybe he's giving me the time and space I needed.

I came back to teaching but supermodel parin ako ng Verdana. I realized, teaching is still my passion, The Verdana made a charity event kung saan kaming mga models ang nagtuturo sa mga bata in isolated areas, napili ko ang Philippines
I've travelled around the area, from Mountains to Villages.

Through this journey, I felt like the old me is slowly coming back. Ang buhok ko ay nagiging wavy na ulit sa bandang dulo, nagkukulay brown nanaman ito. But I was diagnosed yet again.

' Emotional and Psychological Trauma'

Right after bumalik ako ng Pilipinas, hindi ako agad nakarecover; I am guilty, angry, self-blaming, I'm feeling disconnected and a lot of Anxiety
That's why I was diagnosed by EP Trauma. Long term din ang therapy na ginawa saakin, truly, nabaliw na ako. I needed a lot of self esteem.

My heart is missing something.
Kung sana andito lang si Theo

" Teacher bakit ka po umiiyak? Mahirap po ba itong i-solve? " nag-aalalang tanong ng bata.

Inspite of the interrupted thoughts of mine, agad kong pinunasan ang luha ko at bahagyang tumawa
" Hindi, may naalala lang ako "

Andito kami ngayon sa isang village near Cordillera , commonly ethnic groups ang target naming turuan this year. I am with my other co-models
while Alex is in Milan.

" Jenna, pack up na ba? " tanong ko sa isang model na kasama ko rin.

Tumango siya " Oo daw Sapph, balik Manila na tayo at may bagong team na babalik dito " aniya.

Halos dalawang araw ko nang suot ang isang maluwang na gray v-neck shirt ko at boyfriends jeans ko, maputik na rin ang rubber shoes ko.

" Class! Magpapaalam muna ang Teacher Sapphira niyo huh? Hayaan niyo, balang araw magkikita ulit tayo" I assured them. I'll make sure to grant my promise before I go.

Lumapit silang lahat saakin at niyakap ako; This the reason kung bakit na-overcome ko ang trauma ko, I feel loved and I let go of all the hate.

Nung pumunta kami ng Sagada, it was such a beautiful place. I wish I'm with him, kung bakit ko ba naman kasi siya tinaboy, but he said he'll wait right? At least may pinanghahawakan pa rin ako.

After 9 hours of road trip; pwede namang mag-helicopter, yun nga lang mas enjoy kapag nakikita ang mga view up close. I'm used to it, halos buong buhay ko nagta-travel ako.

" See you soon, Sapph! " anang mga kasamahan ko, kinawayan ko sila at nginitian tiyaka sinara ang pintuan ng van.

Andito ako ngayon sa condominium ni Kuya Philip, andito rin sila Kuya Maxon, Aeron at Daddy. Naabutan ko silang nakahiga lahat sa sala at nanunuod ng ESPN, Lazy days for them.

" Hi Panget " bati ni Kuya Aeron

" Gutom na kami, bunsoy " ani Kuya Philip.

" Luto ka ng paella, bunsoy " sabi naman ni Kuya Maxon.

" Ready na yung ingredients diyan sa counter " ani ni Dadz