There Is A Place (Crowns Of Bearers # 5)

~I Need You~

Jessica's P.O.V.

"He was yours" Kris stared at me with an expressionless face. His eyes were quiverring, tears started pooling around and it was getting in a shade of red. His knuckles suddenly clenched, seeing his thick and long veins scared me more.

"W-what?" He asked, still not fully understanding what's happening. I held his knuckle and tried to ease his grip, rubbing small circles around it and holding it cozily.

"Kris, i-i'm sorry. I-I didn't mean to..." I stoped not knowing what to explain anymore, a long and pregnant silence surrounded the whole area. I can feel his grip tighting once again but this time I took my hands away from him.

"Arghh!!" Kris suddenly stood up and throwed his coat on the floor, he punched the wall beside him causing his fist to bleed. With uneasy steps, I tried walking closer to him and held his arm but he suddenly pinned me to the wall. My back hurts with all the force he exerted, my mind was getting blank seeing his angry and lonely eyes. How can he show both different emotions in only a second?

"Why didn't you tell me?!!! How can you be so cruel?!!" He yelled at me, gripping both of my arms tightly. I don't want to bring the old Kris back and I'm not letting it to happen.

"Kris I-I didn't want this to happen, I just needed-" I stopped once again, Kris made me feel insecure, he made me feel how mad he is yet he was still fighting the beast he has in him. He rested his head on top on mine, his nose touching mine, eyes lonely and puffy.

"I'm filing a custody" he uttered under his breath, a tear fell from my eye.

"No, Kris you can't" I squeaked, having a hard time talking to him when he was this close. Telling him how much his son needs him, how much I need him right now. He took a step back and ruffled his hair.

"Why?! For god's sake, he's my son Jess!"

"He's also my son" I retorted, Ace was my everything. Yet without Kris, Ace wouldn't be with me, I know he has the right to defend and claim his son but instead of having a broken family... I want Ace to have a happy family. I want Kris to stay with me.

"But you didn't even contacted me to tell that you're pregnant! 6 years Jess! 6 fucking years! You took him away from me for 6 years! I should've raised him with love and completed his life! Don't you know how hard it is for him to understand this?! He's only a kid Jess yet you raised him with a lie?! How could you do this?! You didn't even contacted me to tell that you were pregnant!" Pain, was the only thing we could feel. Kris shouldn't be hurting like this, he shouldn't be having a hard time because of me.

" I tried!, I tried contacting you in many possible ways! I sent a letter to you a week after I confirmed that I was pregnant. I also sent an e-mail showing a positive pregnancy test. I tried calling and texting you every day but then I realized that you've already changed your number"

"Then why didn't you talked to me?! I was helplessly loving you for 6 years Jess, 6 LONG YEARS!!! I treated Ace as my own, I loved him eventhough I had a hard time thinking if I could still have a chance to be the father of your son yet he was really my biological son?! Why didn't you faced me?!" He started grabbing my arms again and kept on shaking me. I started punching his chest and cried all over again, my punches had gotten weaker and weaker until my legs also gave up on me. I fell on the floor with Kris still standing infront of me.

"Because I'm scared! I'm scared that you'll also take him from me Kris. You've already taken everything, my happiness, my innocence and my freedom.You raped me that night Kris! This wasn't supposed to happen! I regreted that sinful night! And now Ace is the only thing I have left and I won't let you take him away from me."

"Just please not him" He heaved a sigh and looked at me. He was also crying and it pained me to see him like this. I burried my face between my hands and silently cried.

"Isn't this what you wanted? To see me hurting because you kept everything as a lie? For me to understand your pain? Then now I'm surrendering, you've hurted me enough" Kris spoke in a low and sad tone, his voice was barely audible.

"Jess" Someone held my shoulder causing me to halt and turn around, there I saw my mom widening her arms waiting for me to embrace her. She helped me to stand up and shared my pain with her.

"Mom, I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want Kris to drift away from us. I want him to be the father of our child I want him to stay with me but he's going to get Ace just for himself. I don't care anymore, I want him, only him"

"Ms. Jung, we are happy to inform you that both of the patients are already in a stable and safe condition" I sat on the bench still not fully recovered on what had happened earlier.

"We also transferred them to a ward together" The nurse said but I didn't understand even a single word she was saying, my mind was still occupied by Kris.

"Thank you... Thank you very much" Mom just stood up and talked with the nurse sensing how sensitive and unresponsive i've become.

"You're welcome ma'am. The 2 of them are in the room 307."

Kris' P.O.V.

With a heavy heart I drove back to my house to find all the letters Jess sent me. I opened my drawer inside the wardrobe and pulled all the letters out, I scattered them on the bed. All of the envelopes are all in white but one thing stole my attention, it was a light blue envelope. My tears started pouring when I read everything, it was sent on the day of my birthday, 6 years ago.

To my dearest Yifan,

Kris... I don't know if you are still reading my letters. I don't even know if you already know that I am pregnant. Kris, 9 months had passed yet you didn't even tried to contact me and find me, I guess you didn't really love me the way I thought you did. Kris, I've already given birth, and I want you to name him. But as I've said, you really didn't bother to tell me anything. Our relationship for 3 years just suddenly ended like that, I broke free, you let me go.

Ace. That's the name I want to name him, you kept on bugging me about your soon to be son. You kept on repeating his name over and over again when we were still a couple, and I think what I'm doing today is the right thing. Ace, he'll become my strength, he'll become my everything and he'll become you. I will raise him well Kris and I promise, when I'm ready I'll let you meet him. I'll let you meet your son. And by that time, I would be ready to welcome you back in my life. I love you Kris... I always will.

~ Jessica