There Is A Place (Crowns Of Bearers # 5)

~Past~

Jessica's P.O.V.

Kris and I were a couple for 3 years, everything was fine until he slowly starts to part from me. I was waiting for him to come home one night, it was already 12 o'clock in the morning yet he's still not home. We decided to live in one house, which he bought for our future family, though he still visits his family in their original house and sometimes he also sleeps there.

I lied down on the couch and started to wait for him, still worried about him. My thoughts were erased when I saw Kris walking grogily on the front door, I was ablut to embrace him when he suddenly walked past me.

"You're drunk?" I asked, smelling this foul smell that covered his cologne.

"Kris, why are you drunk? Kris talk to me" I asked again but this time holding his hand and tugging his sleeve.

"Can't you stop talking for a day?!! can't you stop asking about stupid things?!!" He shouted at me and starts going inside our room. Stupid? really? I'm stupid because I'm worried about him?

"Kris ofcourse I'm worried about you that's why I kept on asking if something's wrong! I'm your girlfriend so I need to know everything" I follwed him inside and grabbed his wrist.

"Then stop being my girlfriend!"

"Kris what's wrong with you? Why are you acting like this?" I cried, hearing the most heartbreaking thing he said. He doesn't want me anymore?

"You want to know why? Huh?! You want to know why?!" He started walking towards me. With one step he moves, 2 steps I took backwards. With his long arms he grabbed my arm and pulled me near him.

"What are you doing?! Let go of me!"

"I'm having a hard time taking care of our company and all you're doing is to just spent my money! Don't you know how annoying you are?!" I kept on moving my arm until he finally lets go of it.

"You told me to step down from being the heir of my own company! I'm not that low Yifan! I know all my limits! I'm trying my best to satisfy you and this is what I get? Being scolded by you?!"

"SATISFY?! When did you ever satisfy me?" He pinned me on the wall with a huge force earning a little whimpper from me. He smiled noticing how scared and weak I am, he harshly pulled my hair to the side, I moaned in pain. His smile grew more and started biting my neck, I tried to struggle but he only bit my neck more, a tear fell from my eye from the pain he gave me.

"Kris! Stop! You're hurting me!" Instead on listening to my pleas, he starts to rip my clothes off leaving me in my undergarments. His nails scratched my arms a bit, causing it to bleed. His smile grew wider and pushed me on the bed, he quickly crawled on top of me before I could escape.

"Kris!" I cried when he managed to take the only thing covering me, he splited my legs forcefully and got himself also naked. He slapped me and continue to bit my neck, then he tried to kiss me earning a loud whimper from me.

"Shut up will you! You're my girlfriend aren't you? Now you need to satisfy me until I can get rid of being sober." He suddenly plungged himself into me and starts trusting.

Pain that's the only thing I can feel, not excitement nor pleasure. What we did isn't making love, he forced me, he raped me. Something like this didn't crossed my mind, I didn't know that Kris could do this to me. After he was done he slowly pulled out of me and lied down beside me, I kept on crying covering my mouth not wanting him to hear me or else I'll have to satisfy him again. I cried myself to sleep until the morning comes.

I stood up from the bed and falling on the floor in misery. My legs were hurting but my heart was aching, I gathered all my strength and endured the pain. I quickly grabbed all my belongings and showered, then I saw myself in the mirror. Is this how I look? Broken? My lips were swollen and purple hickeys were decorated on my neck, there were scratches on my arms and inner tighs. Yet the monster who broke me is the man I used to love.

I quickly went outside our house and hailed a cab. I knocked on the door three times and mom opened the door, she asked me what happened and she tried to talk to Kris but I only shooked my head and embraced her tightly. Dad and mom wanted to have a vacation so they took Krystal and me in the States and they decided to stay a few years there.

While I was attending my school there, I met Aiden, another Korean heir. We became friends and he instantly grew close to my family, we were having a picknik with Aiden when I suddenly starts to throw up and began feeling dizzy then everything becomes black. I woke up in a hospital with mom telling me that I am pregnant, then my mind instantly remembered Kris. I wrote him a letter everyday, telling him how active his son is while he's staying in my tummy, how hard it is for me to have morning sickness and all. I decided to ask him what name should we call our son, but he didn't respond. I wrote my last letter on the day our son was born, on the day of his birthday. I took a picture of Ace when he was a newborn baby in the hospital and placed it inside the blue envelope together with the letter I wrote.