Crossroads

Ch. 19: Torn

India

Kendall and I laid back on our beach chairs under our large beach umbrella. It was hot out and the guys wanted to go out on the beach. So we decided to lounge in the sand close to the water.

My mind kept drifting off to earlier this morning with Daniel. I couldn't believe I was so caught up that I was quite in love with two guys. I didn't know what to do or what to think. It was no surprise that I'd still be drawn to Daniel since he was my first love.They say you'll always feel some type of way for your first love and I was finding that to be so true.

But Khalil, he was... amazing and I cared about him so deeply. Even though I questioned his intentions after he admitted him being with me was a set up, I knew deep down that his feelings were genuine. He was so sweet and loving. He treated me with too much delicacy for him to be acting. He was definitely someone I could see myself having a future with. With Daniel, I had always seen a future with him. Nothing had changed.

I loved them both and it was killing me inside because I knew I'd have to choose only one. It was challenging to even consider because I knew choosing one meant losing the other.

"Girl, what the hell is on your mind so heavy?" Kendall asked breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Not-"

"Aye, Indie, where D at?" Cameron ran up asking with Khalil coming behind him. He was sweaty and out of breath.

"Um, I think he and Trey went to go buy some drinks for us down by the shops." I replied looking over him and noticing that he was holding a little volleyball. "Where'd you get that from? I know you didn't bring it."

"He took the shit from some kid." Khalil shook his head while sitting on my chair and making himself comfortable between my legs. He laid the back of his head against my breasts and held my legs securely around his torso.

"Really, Cameron? You are a mess!" Kendall laughed. "Was the mother around?"

"She was too busy getting sun tanned and the boy was too busy eating sand so I took it and ran." He shrugged and crouched down to sit on his towel laid out in the sand.

"I'm not surprised." I giggled.

I ran my hands over Khalil's head playing with his waves.

"Baby, can you please put some sunscreen on for me? I can't reach my upper back and it's hot as fuck." Khalil sat up.

"Or is it that you're just lazy?" I teased.

"Um.. it's kinda both."

I laughed and grabbed the sunscreen from my tote bag and lathered his soft, smooth skin that had a few swollen scratches from my nails last night.

He hissed and flinched every now and then from the cream seeping through the peeled skin caused by my nails.

"Damn, girl you're an animal." Kendall said looking at me weirdly.

"Shut up." I grinned.

"Yeah - sss aw shit! Hold up, baby. That part hurts really bad." Khalil hissed and leaned forward for a while and twisted himself in an awkward position because of the pain. "I can't blame her that's to tell you I was hitting it right." He said and he leaned back for me to continue. From my view of the back of his head, I saw his cheeks stretched to his ear so I knew he was grinning.

I slapped his back with my palm which made him jump up out of the chair nearly piling up in the sand.

He bent over with his hands placed on his knees, laughing. "Stop hitting me. Shit." He complained and rubbed his toned stomach in a circular motion.