the only reason

I'm not going - chapter 26 (Lindsey's)

*Ashton's pov*

The next morning I woke up to see Calum shaking my arm. "Cal? What is it?" I asked.

"Today's the day!" He exclaimed happily.

"What?" I asked in confusion.

"It's the day we get to go check Luke out from the hospital!" He said. You could practically see the love in his eyes every time he said Luke's name. God this boy is in love.

"And why are you telling me this?" I asked him with a slight chuckle.

"Because I need you to drive me!" He said getting frustrated.

"Why? Where's your car?" I ask him.

"Michael took it because his is at the shop! Now come on! Unless of course you want me to drive your car by myself..." He said and I jumped up in an instant.

"Give me a few minutes to get ready?" I asked. He gave me a simple hurry and I pulled on a shirt. I slipped on the closest pair of pants to me and then slid on my Vans. I snatched my keys off of the keyrack and walked to my car, where Calum was already sitting. "Let's go!" He said trying to rush me.

"Calum calm it!" I snapped. I know he's excited and all, but he sure is getting annoying.

"I'm sorry, I'm just excited is all." He apologized. I nodded, trying to tell him it's all okay. We drove to the hospital with neither of us talking. It wasn't awkward, we just didn't have anything to say. When we arrived, Calum pretty much jumped out of the car once it was stopped. "Cal!" I yelled while running after him. He ran to the front desk and signed all the necessary papers and soon, we had Luke in the car with us. "So, Luke I'd like to talk with you about something." I started.

"Yes?" He asked me softly.

"Well, you know that suicide is not okay, right?" I asked casually.

He nodded. "Yes, and I'm ashamed that I went back to my old habits. I promise I won't do it again." He said.

"Actually, to make sure you don't do it again, we should maybe send you off to Gentle Cove?" I suggested.

He froze. "You mean... You want to send me to a mental institution?" He asked with hurt written all over his face.

"No, Luke, I'm sorry, I didn't mean that..." I said.

"Then what the hell did you mean?" He yelled.

"Luke... Calm down, I was just suggesting that we get you help." I said calmly. Calum looked uncomfortable. "You'd only be there a few days. I can see it makes you uncomfortable. However, we are most likely getting you regular therapy and you're not allowed to have anything sharp. I'm sorry it has the be this way, but it does. I just can't lose you too.."