Unreal (KaiStal f.f)

Ch. 23

[Jongin]

June 15, 2100.

Today is the date where two events will forever remind me of big events: the suicide of our doctor, Dr. Seo, and is getting our memories back. It's unfortunate that I don't even have time to mourn for Dr. Seo, due to the fact that Soojung is someone who matters to me more and she's currently not okay.

I wipe my eyes with my sleeve as my left hand is still tightly gripping hers. What had happened a few hours ago is so concerning that I had her be brought into my room for her emergency care instead of a normal room. Her blood pressure was so low that 90% of the doctors thought that she was really going to die.

However, my Soojung is strong; she made it through her heartbreak and mental breakdown. I've always looked weak in front of her; crying everywhere we went. Crying when we separated, when I sobbed about not being able to remember my love, and now.

I want her to wake up already so I can just talk to her as lovers. I need her to wake up.

"Soojung, my love, please wake up. I need you to hold me so I can sleep comfortably tonight..." I whisper, laying my head down onto her hands and softly whimper. I miss her touch so much.

I love her.

My cold tears turn warm underneath my skin as her hands warm up and start to twitch. Lifting up my head, I place my hand on her cheek and caress it.

"Soojung? Are you awake?"

Instead of being like one of those sick patients in Korean dramas where their eyes slowly rise, Soojung's just opens her eyes and looks at me.

"Soojung, do you remember me?" I cry, being a total baby. She probably thinks I'm some sensitive guy right now.

Her eyes turn watery and sad; they remind me of when there's a beautiful lake out there but it's ruined because of the dark skies. Not just a dark sky, but I imagine the one that we parted each other under.

"I'm sorry, Jongin. I did wrong," she pushes my hand away and covers her face up with her hands. "I couldn't recognize you, I'm sorry."

Why is she blaming herself when I should be the one blaming myself, too? If I have been crying so much about someone that I love so much, if I really loved that person so much, why couldn't I remember them?

I pull her body into my arms and tightly hug her. Her body shakes and jerks in my arms as she cries, blaming herself for something that couldn't have been avoided.

"It's okay, Soojung. We wouldn't prevent it in the first place, anyways. Shh, don't blame yourself; you'll just worsen your mental health. I'm sorry, too, for not being able to protect you." I cry and kiss her forehead.

"I won't let you go ever again, my love."