The Bad Boy Effect

Chapter 33: What The Fuck Was That, Emma?

*intense makeout scene again* *sorry not sorry* 

I finally pull away from Arran and rest my head against his. My breathing is erratic and I have no idea what to do with myself. I look into his eyes as I rest my hands on his chest. I bite my lower lip and then pull my head away. He looks at me with confusion and his eyes show a hint of hurt in them.

"I..." I start to say, but I don't know where I'm going with it, so I quickly get out of the hot tub, grab the towel, and I run into the house quickly.

What the fuck was that, Emma?

I continue to walk up into my room and I close the door, resting my back against it. Why did I do that? I could have gotten laid. I could have been just like every other girl he's been with....

And that's when it hits me. I don't want to be like every other girl he's been with. I don't want to lose my virginity to him because of the fact that I don't want to have the same reputation as every other girl. I know why I walked away.

I love him.

I stand there in shock as I feel my eyes widen.

I admitted it.

I love him.

I feel my heart sink. Oh no, oh no, oh no!

I can't love him. I forbid it.

Oh who am I kidding? It's too late. I've been in love for a while now and I don't know what to do. That's why I backed out. I don't want to have sex with someone who doesn't love me back. I feel the tears prick my eyes but I push them back. I'm not going to cry over him.

I sniffle and decide to go take a shower. A shower will help me think. I walk into the bathroom and slide my bikini off along with my towel. I turn the water on and stand under it, letting the cool water sooth my shoulders. What the hell am I going to do now?

I hear a knock on my bedroom door just as I get out of the shower. I wrap the towel around me tightly and I quickly walk over to the door.

"May I help you?" I ask as I peek through the crack.

"Can I come in?" he asks.

I don't know what makes me decide what I do, but before I know it he's on my bed and I'm standing in front of him, trying to hold the tears back. He's wearing some pajama pants but that's it. He looks up at me with this... lost look, as if he doesn't know what to do. He reminds me of a child who lost his mother at the store. A brown haired child with big gray eyes.

"What do you need?" I ask softly.

"What did I do?" he asks, his voice full of curiosity. "Why did you get up and leave?"

I sigh and then stare at him, not knowing whether or not I should tell him.

"I just..." I start but I don't know how to put it.

He stands up and tilts my chin up so I can look at him.

"I wasn't going to force you into having sex, if that was your fear."

I laugh a little. "I know. I wasn't expecting you to."

"Then why did you leave?" he asks.

I bite my lower lip and all the anger and sadness that I've pushed down comes out of nowhere.

"I don't want to be like all of the other girls you've dated!" I say exasperated.

He frowns as if trying to process this. "What do you mean?"

"Every girl you've dated, you've had sex with. And afterwards, you dumped them. And then they turn into a girl like Kallie or something. I don't want to be like that!" I say as if it's the most obvious thing.

He looks at me. "You think the only reason I got with you is because I want in your pants?" he scowls. "That's what you think of me?"

I roll my eyes. "Well what else would you want from me? I've got nothing on those other girls!" I glare at him. "Why even make a bet with me? Because this is all going to go down in flames in the end!"

"So you think I'm just trying to make you another notch in my belt?" he says as if I wounded him.

"Pretty much, yes." I say as I frown. "I don't want to be like every other girl you've dated. I won't allow it to happen."

"Well you're nothing like the other girls I've dated, and you never will be." he says finally.

I glare at him. "Why not, huh? Is it because of my height? My weight? My looks?"

He rolls his eyes and grabs his head. "For fuck's sake, no!"

"Then why, Arran? What's so different about me?"

I'm close to his face now. He closes his eyes and groans.

"Because..."

I stare at him. "Well?"

"Because I love you."

My heart stops and I gape at him.

"What?" I ask shocked.

"I love you." he says quietly as he pulls me close.

I look into his eyes and I realize he looks so vulnerable. Like a puppy dog who has been kicked one too many times. I rub his cheek with my thumb and a grin spreads onto my face.

"I love you too." I say softly.

His eyes look into mine and they turn a beautiful shade of gray that I've never seen before. He breaks into a smile and then picks me up and kisses me softly. He pulls away and smiles. But his smile fades quickly when he looks at me. His smile turns into a face of concentration and before I can do anything, his lips are on mine. His hand goes to the small of my back and I wrap my arms around his neck.

He moves his mouth to the corner of mine and spreads soft kisses from there and he slowly moves his way down to my neck, sucking on it softly. I let a small noise escape me and before I know what's going on, I'm lifted off the ground and am put onto the bed. He rests on top of me and continues his assault on my neck, pinning my hands above my head.

My skin shivers under his touch and it's pure bliss. He doesn't go lower than my neck, and it's sort of driving me crazy. He moves his mouth back up and it's on mine within seconds. I grin against his mouth and kiss him one last time.

"I need to go do something real quick," I say. He chuckles and rolls over. I bend over, grab some things, and rush into the bathroom.

Five minutes later, I walk out- quite awkwardly- in the matching underwear and bra that Meagan packed. Arran is lying on the bed when I walk over to him. He looks up and his eyes widen. I find myself blushing.

"What are you doing?" he asks quietly.

I sigh and slowly crawl onto his lap. I rest my hands on his chest.

"What I've been dying to do for a while now." I say and I slowly kiss him.

***

I lay there, staring at the ceiling. Arran is panting next to me. I find myself grinning like an idiot. It hurt like hell, but it was amazing. I look over at Arran who's face is really red.

"That was better than I expected, shorty." he looks over at me and grins a lopsided grin.

I smile and find myself holding his hand. "So I guess you lost the bet, huh?"

"I guess so." he says. "But I don't regret it." 

A/N: Hey, Yes it's official :D I hope you guys liked this chapter and I didn't do a full sex scene because like, I don't know if little kids are reading or what (I would hope not because of all the language) But if you guys want me to do an outtake or something maybe I can add it as a bonus chapter or something XD Anyway, I'll see you loves in the next chapter <3 Please remember to vote and comment on your favorite part! :)