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chapter xxiii | tell me your stories

ELIZABETH'S POV (2 MONTHS LATER)

I hadn't talked to anyone but Josh and Harley in two months. I had left the day after the party with Harley. I left earlier enough so I wouldn't have to say any goodbyes and I could get out of their lives for good.

Or so that's what I thought.

Sitting here now I was faced with one of the biggest problems I had ever dealt with. Not that it was so much a problem, but it wasn't something I could fix. I had to deal with the dumb mistakes I had made.

I had heard from Josh that Jack and Alex were both spiteful with me because I left. He tried to tell me to talk to them but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Not knowing they were upset with me. Josh had also told me that Rian and Zack were upset but also overly concerned. 

Everyone was worried about me and I wouldn't even let them know I was okay.

If I could drink this away, I would.

"Beth, are you listening?" Harley's voice pulled me out of my thoughts and I looked up. We were currently sitting at my apartment just talking- we did this often after everything happened with me and him and Chris broke up.

"No, sorry." I said dryly.

"This is getting to much. You need to go talk to them. Fix this and tell Alex." Harley's voice was stern and I knew he was right, so exactly one day later I was stepping my feet onto Baltimore.

I didn't think of where I could stay. I didn't think about anything. It was impulse, and I was starting to regret it. 

I got into the taxi I had hailed and told the taxi driver Jack's address- I guess I'd start there.

I pulled up in front of the house and grabbed my bag, I had no idea how this was going to go.

The wind ripped through my hair as I knocked on the door. I felt like I was going to be sick. I couldn't do this.

The door pulled open and I saw the great smile of Rian. It soon dropped though. "Liz?" he breathed.

He didn't waste time wrapping me in a hug and although I was glad to feel welcomed, I knew he would probably be the only one.

"Hey dumbass, who's at the-" Jack's voice cut off and his smile turned into something different. Anger? Hurt?

"Why are you here?" he spit as Rian let me go. Rian shot him a look and then smiled apologetically.

"Come in, let's go into the living room." Rian grabbed my hand lightly as Jack just shook his head.

"She's not fucking coming in here. She didn't need me, remember? She stopped talking to me." Jack spoke up.

I felt the tears welling up as Cassadee walked in. "Liz? Oh honey, I'm so glad to see you! How have you been?" she hugged me happily and I couldn't even fake the smile at this point.

"Let's all just pretend we haven't spent the last two months worrying about her. Let's just act like what she did, didn't happen." Jack spit sarcasticly as he stormed off upstairs.

Rian frowned and Cassadee pulled me into the now empty living room.

"I'm sorry." I apologied.

"Don't be, I deserve it. He has every right to be upset." Rian and Cassadee just nodded their heads; because I was right.

"I'm sorry you guys. I shouldn't have just walked away." I whispered.

"Don't worry about us, we love you regardless. But you should go talk to Jack." Rian spoke up.

I nodded my head and stood up awkwardly and slowly walked up the stairs to the room I had been in so many times before.

I knocked once.

Nothing.

Twice.

Nothing.

I slowly opened the door and bit my lip. Jack was sitting with his back to me- crying.

I felt my heart break. I made my best friend cry. I did this. I caused so much heartbreak and pain. "Please don't cry." I squeaked.

He barley moved, "Wouldn't be the first time." his tone was sarcastic.

"Jack, can I explain." I asked quietly.

Jack stood up and shrugged, "There's nothing to explain. You left. All of us. Without a word you walked away from us and ignored us all when we tried. You fucking crushed me Liz! I thought we were best friends!" he yelled.

"I know but-"

"There is no but's. You left! You walked away! You hurt all of us!" 

"Jacky if you just let me-"

"Jacky?! You can't call me that anymore! You ruined this friendship! How could I ever trust you not to just leave? I know I was a dick but I was going to fix it that morning, but you walked away. I lost you once, that wasn't your fault. But this time it was. You left Liz."

"Let me explain!" I pleaded, tears rolling down my cheeks.

"There's nothing to explain! This can't be fixed! Why did you even come back? Just to cause more pain?" he snapped again.

"Jack I'm pregnant! With Alex's baby!" I screamed.

A/N: Oh shit. Btw this chapter goes out to Hannah. (@hannahraawrs) she's one of my good friends and I've had writers block so she helped me think up some ideas. Follow her on twitter. ;*