Charlie swan

The new me

I'm now a vampire just like Carlisle, this is me. Now I can protect Bella in ways that I couldn't before. But that came with consequences of its own. I notice as Jacob prances in front of me, he lunges and his teeth stick into my neck, I hear bones snap and suddenly.

I am awake, my breathing is heavy and ragged, my entire body is soaked with sweat. I need to get Bella out of here so I can solve where is going on in this town, and she is too much for me to take care of. She hasn't ate anything for the last three days, and seeing Jacob has made her reckless. I can't protect her from herself, and damaging herself won't end the pain she feels. I would know.

I sit back in my recliner and take another swig of beer, this is what damaged my relationship too, but it was what got me through the divorce. Yet her I am again, unable to connect with my daughter.

As soon as she steps in, I hand her her suitcase.

"What's this?"

"You are going back to your mom."

"You're kicking me out."

I sigh, baring myself that I will not face the hurt in front of her, I've done enough, and failing as a parent was the end for me. The ache insides me wells, and I drown it with another swig of beer. I am coherent, but the pain is finally numbing. At least long enough to face this mess.

"No, but she needs you right now, and you need her."

"I can't go."

"Bella.." I slam my beer down, raking my hair in the process, she is going to be the reason I become bald. "He's not coming back, you can't wait around for him forever."

"What about you dad, you can't even cook, when are you going to move on?"

That hit like a ton of bricks, I have to suppress the urge to leave.

"You are going Bella, that's final, get in the car."

Un-Obliging and with lots of resistance, we make our way to the airport. I watch as she goes through customs, and this is as far as I can reach. I hope she gets there safe, I sigh and take a seat in the waiting lounge. Lots of people come in and out, saying goodbyes, and saying hellos.

And I stay alone once again..

I order a bourbon, then a whiskey, then I cry. I cry for everything I lost, and the person that I lost, and the me that is gone. I cry over who I became and who I still am.

Then I shake myself up and get up. I have to be better, to get better. When Bella visits me again, if she does. I will be a better father and a better man. I will show her that I am not a sorry excuse for a dad, and that I am not a wrecked man. 

Oh deep shaking breath later, I get back in my truck and drive back to Forks, the town where everything is going wrong, where vampires and werewolves exists, and where I am completely alone. 

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