Poetry of the Heart & Soul #Wattys2016

Unreconciled

So many unreconciled emotions
We are left in the dark
Not truly knowing what truly put out our spark

Afraid to bring it up
So as not to fuel the negative energy once more
The wasted energy that made us walk through that door

Are we both in pain at this very moment?
Staring at the words we last wrote to each other
Some filled with anger but mostly it's with love

Do you even think of me as you go about your days?
Are you wondering at this moment if I'm ok?
The things I said recently aren't real, I say them to grant you peace
The peace I think you need

So many unreconciled emotions
Slowly breaking me down, how much longer can I keep up this game of charades when all I want, need and desire is your love?

I miss the us that we once were
The us that was vivacious and free
Loving each other in the way we knew best
You silent and I vocal, but I understood you as I felt your love

Both of us would freeze calling each other's name
We answered but then the words we wished to say could never surface, both of us afraid
But then we'd go and text to our hearts content
Loving words we could not bring ourselves to speak on the line as we breathe

We love each other
I didn't know this could be bad
If I'd known where this was leading I probably would have chosen an alternate route
Leading me away from you
Because now I'm in turmoil as unreconciled emotions torment me each day

You're so strong
Keeping yourself at bay treating me like a contagion 
This strength you display...I thought I had once
But somehow with you
It all breaks down
As my love for you is sure
You control every aspect
A power no one ever had over me
But I granted it to you freely not knowing what I'd done as
Unreconciled emotions will be my death under the heavens above