Malibu Love

XIX

"I never really loved them. I think you should know that."

"I know."

"I wasn't even in love with them."

"I know." Lauren said once again "But it can't change how I felt at the time."

"You can't blame me for trying to work it with someone else when you'd go back to Veronica every time." Camila argued

The two Latinas were walking down the beach, ice creams in their hands as they talked about past and present,  and what it all means for them.

"Vero was more of a substitute for you, you know that."

"And Jasper and Dom were something more? Lauren we both did wrong. I don't blame you so why do you blame me?"

"I don't, I'm just saying."

It was true, Lauren did not blame Camila at all. She knew the game was for two and they were both at fault, or not at fault.

"Can I tell you something?" Camila asked anxiously and Lauren hummed

"Once I spent the night at Dom's place. It was a few of us and I shared a bed with him. We were so close to each other and it was nice, but once we stopped talking... I fell asleep, wishing it's you cuddling me. I know it's not nice but even then I knew I feel something for you. I was so scared of it though, of my parents, of our friends finding out, of you thinking it's gross..."

"Little did you know." Lauren whispers

"Yeah, little did I know. Had I known then though, that even after 5 years you feel the same, I'd be more careful with your heart."

"Can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

"What are we doing?"

"Walking."

"Camz-" Lauren tried to say something but Camila cut her off with a loud groan

"We are trying be friends, get to know each other, before anything. I love you Lauren, but I want to know if I love the real you or the thought of you I created in my head. I want to make sure this is the right thing before we both fuck up what we have with the guys."

"What if I'm not who you think I am? If I can't be who you want me to be?"

"We'll see... but I only know so far you always proved to be who I thought you are. Sarcastic little gay shit."

"Flattering." Lauren said and laughed

"Am I wrong?"

"Not at all. 100% correct."

For a few moments they walked in silence, none of them say a thing. Camila was the first one to break it.

"Tell me about how you met Nick."

"What?" Lauren asked, not quite sure if she heard it right

"How did you meet Nick?"

"Well it was Thanksgiving..." Lauren said as a flashback appeared in her head

"If I don't like it we're leaving."

"Of course. But c'mon, I'll bet you'll find someone cute to talk to. Ooh look at that cute girl over there. Let's go and meet her."