No Wings To Fly

Chapter Thirty Six- Jay's Letters to Sam

Dear Just Sam,

First off, I want to apologize for stealing your sketchbook. I know you love it, but I'll return it soon... I think. I just wanted to write you some letters. I thought it might be a 'cute' idea. Maybe not. But there is no going back now. Haha.

I just wanted to tell you how much fun I had with you tonight on our first date. Just so you know, Sam, you didn't ruin our date tonight by crying. In fact, you made it more heartfelt. When I'm with you, all of my emotions come to the surface and I am a different person. And so are you, I'm guessing. Maybe that's a sign we are meant to be.

It felt so good to tell you the other day what my feelings were towards you. You are everything to me. I like you a lot, Sam. Don't go dumping me anytime soon!

Your (boy)Friend,

Jay Daniel Reed

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Dear Sam,

Today we completed our first item on the bucket list. Riding on a motorcycle. Which also led to you coming over to my house. I hope you liked it. Sorry if I was sort of awkward about it all... I get shy about that kind of thing.

And with one thing leading to another, you got a song written for you. Sorry. It kinda sucked. But, I hope it was okay. Oh! And I almost died. Haha. Seriously, you should never be behind the wheel... ever again. 

I just wanted to say, if you ever need me, I'll always be there for you. I know this must all be very difficult for you but I want to be there for you every step of the way.

Yours Truly,

Pill boy

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Dear Girlfriend,

We kissed today. It was perfect. You were perfect.

You are everything I need. You help me stay afloat. Keep that heart of yours beating and you will be mine forever. My heart is yours for the taking!

Forever yours,

Jay

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Dear Sleepyhead,

Right now, you are snoozing on a bench. Wait... no. You just blinked.

Anyway. I just wanted to tell you I love you. I always will. 

I would do anything for you, Sam. You need to know that. Whatever happens, you can rely on me. I love you so very much, and I will always be yours.

Right now, my heart feels at its limit with happiness. You are my world. You are my everything. I promise to keep you safe from harms way. Again, I love you.

Your sweetheart,

James

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Sam.

Please be okay. I need you here now. You have to be strong. I know you just suffered another heart attack, but I need you. My mom started drinking again. You are gone. I have nobody to talk to. I want to scoop you up in my arms and carry you away. I want us to have a happily ever after. 

Please. I love you.

Jay

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Dear Sam,

I love you. I guess that's my fatal flaw. I love you too much.

My life is crumbling apart without you here. The doctors said you need a donor before tomorrow. None have showed up. Except one. Me.

Sorry for never telling you. I know you would never let me. But I couldn't just let you die. Everyone I love ends up leaving me at some point. You are too wonderful, too sweet, too caring, for me to let that happen with you. I can't.

I guess if you are reading this right now, I am already dead. Samantha Jayne White, the reason I lived and the reason I died. Or, If you aren't reading this, the surgery wasn't successful and we are already together.

I know we both wanted our fairy tale ending together. But with everything that happened, I guess that wasn't possible. Well, I won't be gone forever, you know. First off, a piece of me is literally inside of you. Second, you just have to wait for eternity.

You once told me that you would miss getting married, having kids, growing old with someone. Although it makes me sad that I won't be the one to be with you during all of this, I wanted to give you the chance to live out your life.

You may think that this 'ending' is sad. But, it isn't even an ending at all. In fact, it's just the start. The start of our eternity together. I'm not really dead, or gone. Just leaving for awhile. I'll be back. As always. Don't be sad, Sam.

Everyone dies. Why not die saving someone? Being a hero for once? I gave up my life for you to live. So live it up. I'll see you soon, Sam. I guess fate was a little too strong this time.

I love you. And I always will. I'll be your wings to fly.

Okay, Sam.

-Jay Reed

THE END