Human Canvas :: a.i [slow updates]

Chapter 18

It's been over two weeks since I shut Ashton out. And to be completely honest, I feel like it's not going according to plan.
Ashton and I smile at each other quite a lot; whenever we pass each other by, when we glance at each other by accident or when we catch one another staring.
But we barely talk anymore. I was honestly hoping that he'd get the hint that I want to be his friend and hang out with him, but it honestly feels as if he's avoiding me.

Maybe that's what I need. Some time off him. In my mind, things were going too fast, and maybe he understood that and wanted to give me some space, which I'm not quite sure I appreciate or not. I mean, I appreciate everything he does for me, but being away makes me miss him too much.
His smile hasn't left my mind, and I keep craving his kiss and touch... I know I shouldn't, I know the best thing really is to be away from him, so I don't end up hurt, but that's really hard to do.

My eyes run over the page of the book I'm holding in my hands and try to focus on what's written on it, but unfortunately, my mind is being taken over by something else.

I grab my phone and go on my contacts list, searching for Ashton's number and when I find it I stare at it for what seems forever.

Should I give him a call? Does he even want to talk to me?

I sigh and throw the phone across the bed, knowing well that no matter how hard I try, anxiety simply won't allow me to call him.

But when I least expect it, the device I was just holding starts vibrating. I sigh again. I really don't feel like speaking to anyone but Ashton.

I prepare to silence the phone when I read his name on the screen.

Excitedly and nervously, I quickly pick up without even planning what to say.

"Hello?" I say shyly, my heart rate accelerating dangerously.

"Alma! H-hey." he stutters and I smile. "How are you?"

"I'm okay. Surprised you called, but okay. You?"

He completely ignores my question and goes on talking, "I'm sorry I'm calling you so late but I have to, well, I need, not need, exactly, more like want to ask you something."

I nod, although he can't see me. "Okay." I simply say.

He cleans his throat, "I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me. On a date. A real one, not like the time we spent at the museum. I was thinking if maybe, we could start over?"

I almost burst with excitement and almost blurt out a yes, but then I remember how I should be more careful with him. With how I'm not ready to be in a relationship.

"Ashton, I..." I start but he's quick to interrupt me.

"Listen, it's totally okay if you say no, but know that we can be just friends. This doesn't mean anything. Just a fresh start between us."

Put like that, it seems easier to say yes. I can simply go out and let him know I want to be just friends. Unless that would give him false hope. I shake my head.

"Okay... could you give me some time to think about it? I promise I'll be quick."

He cleans his throat yet again, "Uh... the thing is - and please don't be mad - I'm standing right outside your door to take you out."

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this was so short but I really really wanted to update!!!

I NEED YOUR HELP!!!

what do you think alma should do? should she go on that date with ash or should she keep her distance?  and if she decides to go, do you think she should let herself go or remember that she doesn't want do date?

I got my plans but I want to hear what you'd like to see and how soon you want the smut to come... hehehe

thanks for keeping up with this story I love you so much wow it's unreal