Warning - There may be some Bullying and Depression Triggers
Do you ever think of how big the world really is? How about how we can never achieve world peace? Or how about we can never fix all the problems in our life? Problems can be fixed but more keeps showing up. Ever since Y/N has been bullied in her childhood, she tried to smile more often... But not all the problems can be solved. She was already half in depression but the death of her mother just the last straw she had to offer...
Gajeel, of course, knew about this and is constantly trying to help Y/N over come her depression. The guild found out not to long ago and guild mates poured encouragement and presents at her, also trying to help and ease the pain.
Y/N was healing day by day. Or trying to heal.
Did anyone ever tell you that depression was like drowning?
Except you can see the people that are still breathing?
Y/N was sitting in the living room currently, drinking hot chocolate with Gajeel, watching Death Note.
"What if the Death Note actually exist? What would you do with it?" Y/N asked as the credits rolled.
"Well, first I'd kill that Annoying Salamander. Then I'd bury the Death Note, before dark guilds get their filthy hands on them." Gajeel said after thinking.
Y/N chuckled. "But it would be boring if Natsu wasn't at Fairy Tail!" Y/N pointed out as she got up to refill the hot chocolate. "After all, he's the life at the party."
"Whatever." Gajeel scoffed.
Y/N handed him the filled mug, Gajeel mumbled a thanks.
' What if the death note was real, ' Y/N thought. ' that would make it much easier to commit suicide. Then I could see mom... And everyone wouldn't have to worry about me. I wouldn't become a burden. '
"Hey!" Gajeel said, waving his hand over her face. "Anyone home?"
"Sorry.." Y/N mumbled sheepishly.
Gajeel stared at her
"Stop."
"Huh?"
"I know that face." Gajeel said, frowning. "That's when you are thinking suicide kind of thoughts." Y/N looked away, ashamed. He grabbed her shoulder, so that she was facing towards him. "Look at me."
Y/N looked up.
His Crimson red eyes bored into her, piercing through her skull.
"Stop. Stop thinking you don't deserve to live. Stop thinking that. That's just feeding the depression. Don't give in. Be strong. For the guild, for your mom, for me."
Y/N felt her eyes swell with tears. " I'm sorry.." Y/N said, ashamed.
"What are you saying sorry for shrimp? I'm just asking for you to try and stop those thoughts. I know you can't help it, shrimp." Gajeel pulled Y/N into a hug.
"Cause if ya don't, I'm going to walk up to heaven and make you come back down to this hell. I know it's bad but you can't just ditch me with those losers." Gajeel joked.
Y/N choked out a chuckle.
"You're to good to me..."
"You're the one hanging out with me. I don't know how you manage to stay with me this long" Gajeel said. "You're too good to me."
"Damn right I am, I refilled your mug." Y/N smirked.
Gajeel just rolled his eyes. And the couple returned to watching Death Note.
