My Guardian Angel

Chapter 21

Hayden's P.O.V

I started to cry even harder as the thoughts of killing myself raced through my mind. I honestly have had enough. My dad clearly thought my life was worthless. No one at school bothered to be friends with me besides Rebecca, and now Louis had decided I wasn't good enough for him. This would solve all of my problems.

Just then the door flew open and a drunk Rebecca came stumbling in.

I quickly wiped away my tears.

"IM HOME!", she yelled nearly tripping up the stairs.

"C'mon," I said grabbing her arm to drag her up to her room.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

"I think you need some sleep."

"Oh okay." She muddled. She looked half asleep already.

"How much did you have to drink anyways?" I asked her.

"Oh I don't know, only a couple." She giggled. Somehow I just didn't believe her. Maybe it was because she could barely stand up.

"Well I'm glad you had fun." I told her as I covered her with the blanket.

"Goodnight," she mumbled half asleep.

"Goodnight," I said rolling my eyes

I shut her door and walked to my room.

I thought of how I would do it.

Pills? Hang myself?

No, I thought to myself, I couldn't let Rebecca find me dead on her floor.

Those words sent chills down my spine.

But What else was I supposed to do? It's not like I have anything...or anyone to live for. I don't really have a choice. Either I kill myself and end this now, or I can continue day after day in living hell.

The tears started rolling down my cheeks.

I can't believe Louis did this to me. After I told him I loved him, after he let me live with him. How could he cause me this much pain? I should have listened to Rebecca. This is all my fault. My fault for trusting him. My fault for getting caught up in his smile, and his sweet words. It wasn't his fault. It was all mine.

I buried my face in my pillow and cried myself to sleep.

The next morning I woke up to get ready for school, thank god we only had a week left. I couldn't handle seeing Louis everyday.

I looked in the mirror, my eyes were red and puffy from crying all night. I was a mess. I looked dead already.

I quickly took my shower and we to change. I was in absolutely no mood to wear something decent, so I just threw on some black leggings and a hoodie. I applied some mascara and didn't even bother to grab any breakfast

I was just about to turn the corner when I heard a very familiar voice behind me.

"Hey wait up!", I heard Louis say.

No. He is out of my life now. I cant keep letting him pull me back in. I walked faster but he managed to catch up.

"How many time do I have to tell you to leave me alone!", I shouted at him.

"Please just-", he never got to finish before I cut him off.

"No Louis!", I yelled turning around to face him.

"Do you know how much pain you caused me?", I managed to choke out through my tears.

"Hayden I," he never got to finish before I cut him off again.