THE DARK SIDE OF BELLA SWAN

Chapter Nineteen (An Arguement Over Something That May Never Happen)

Bella's POV

It has been a week since Edward and I have come back from Florida, Alice started begging for me to let her plan the wedding even-though I literally attacked her last week. I said, "Fine Alice, I'll let you plan the wedding on two conditions: One, if you promise to not go overboard with the planning and two, you let Edward and I confirm your decision in case we don't agree with somethings." She squealed, "I promise, Bella," then she pulled me in for a quick hug and ran back to her room way too fast for a human. I turned to Edward and said, "She one over excited vampire pixie, don't you agree." He replied, "Certainly, I'm sure she'll be going over board soon." I told him, "I know, that's what the second condition is for." He stated, "You are clever, my love."

Edward and I left the living room and headed up the stairs to his bedroom, he lifted me into arms as we reached the threshold of his bedroom and he sat me down on top of the bed Alice ordered from a furniture store in Seattle. He moved to lay beside me and placed a kiss on my cheek, I knew exactly where this was going to lead us to. I decided to leave the discussion of us conceiving a child until later, I didn't want to ruin the moment we were having right now....

Two hours later Edward and I were fully dressed again and had moved to sit on his couch, I had a feeling things were going to go to heck soon. I took a deep breath before saying, "We need to talk about something before we set date for our wedding." He asked me, "What do we need to talk about?" I told him, "The possibility of us having a child together, I want to have a child with you Edward." He stated, "I don't think I can do that, Bella." I yelled at him, "Why the hell not?!" He took a deep breath and said, "Because a human conceiving a child by a vampire could be dangerous, I don't want to lose you." I growled out, "I can kill vampires, I think I can handle carrying to an immortal child for however long I need to!" 

Edward looked away and said, "I can't put your life in danger, I almost loss you once and I don't want to live without you." Tears were flowing rapidly because I wanted to have a child with him if it was possible, but he just wouldn't agree with me. I shouted, "You don't even know if it's possible, I want to have a baby with you if it can happen! I swiftly pushed myself away from him and got off the couch, I speedily made my way to Carlisle's study with Edward right behind me.  I knocked on the door and he said, "Come in," I entered in less than a second.

I took a few deep breaths before asking Carlisle, "Do you think you could test on Edward's semen to see if it would actually be possible to conceive a child? Please." Carlisle told me, "Only if Edward gives me a sample." Edward roared, "No way!" I was beyond angry with Edward right now, he was provoking the dark side of me right now. My entire frame was shaking in anger, Carlisle quickly back away from me while Edward remained where he was and that was a big mistake on his part. I got in his face and yelled, "Why are being so difficult over something that may never happen because it might not be possible for a vampire to get a human pregnant?! I can't stand you right now!"

A few seconds later I shoved Edward roughly out of my way as I left Carlisle's office, I growled out, "Don't you dare follow me, Edward! I don't want to near you right now!" I hastily exited the house and took off running into the woods at an immortal speed, I arrived at the meadow in less than a minute. It was a place of relaxation for me as well as for Edward, he was lucky I didn't throw him into the wall because I had been thinking about it.

Edward's POV

I watched as my Bella left the house full of anger that was all directed at me, just because I wouldn't let Carlisle test my swimmers. If Bella baring my child would kill her, then I would rather be childless than risk losing my Bella forever. There was no way I could get my family to kill me if she died, but perhaps I could get Jacob Black to do it because I knew how much he hated me. If Bella insisted on us trying to have a baby, I would most like cave in. If me giving to her would be the cause of her death, then I would let the shape-shifter Jacob Black have the pleasure of killing me.

I made my way towards Carlisle's study and knocked on the door before entering, he looked up at me and asked, "What do you want, Edward?" I said with a sigh, "I'll do the test Carlisle, the one Bella wanted you to do." Carlisle told me, "We'll do the testing later, you need to go talk to Bella and apologize for being such an ass." I never thought Carlisle would use such words like Emmett, I guess he was really pissed off by how I acted towards Bella earlier. I took running out of the house and began following Bella's heavenly scent, I immediately knew it was going to lead me to the meadow.

Bella had her back to me as I entered the meadow, but I could she knew I had followed her to our special place." She said as she shivered in anger, "I thought I told you not to follow me, Edward." I told her, "I notified Carlisle that I would let him test my swimmers, he'll do the testing someday soon or when he has some free time." She turned around and asked as she stopped shaking with anger, "Why are you doing this?" I replied, "I figured out it was no use resisting, I already gave up on other things I did with you that could of killed you." She asked with a grin, "Are you talking about us making love?" I said, "Yes, I am."

There was silence between us for a few minutes, she just watched me in fascination as my skin began to sparkle like diamonds because of the sun. Bella informed me bluntly, "If it's possible for us to have a baby, I want to wait until our honeymoon before we stop using protection." I asked her with a smirk, "Don't you want to have a baby out of wedlock?" She rolled her eyes at me and said, "I rather conceive a child the first night of our honeymoon, I want the creation of our child to be sort of magical." I stated, "You're talking as if you know we're going to have a child, I want to know why." She responded, "I'm just trying to be optimistic Edward, something you should try to do more often."

Bella walked past me a seconds later in the direction of the house, I caught up to her and walked beside her. I couldn't help but wonder if there's actually the possibility of Bella and I have a child, joy started to spread throughout my entire being. Bella's life could be put in danger by us having a child thought, the thought of losing her literally kills me. As Bella said I needed to be more optimistic instead of being pessimistic all the time, all I could do was try.