Baby Mama- JCole (Under Construction)

23- Soul Therapy

*Enjoy. Excuse any errors I'm reading over it and fixing errors. So at this point. Read at your own risk.

Kai Demoney May 20, 2015 11:00 am, Therapeutic Feels Doctor's office

"I know my life will never be normal. This will follow me all my life. All my child's life. I can't go outside without having photos taken of me. It's like I'm famous all on my own. Not just because I'm carrying J- Cole's baby." I give a sigh and look up at my therapist Dr. Coxs.

"It's good to realize these things." She comments with a soft smile. "How are things with you and Malano?"

I smile. "Good. We finally have Kayden living with us, I'm back in school, he has a girlfriend now, and we finally found a place to stay." I slightly bite my lip, more so based around my nerves than anything.

"Are you happy?" I shrug.

"I'm alive." I give a half chuckle. "I mean when will I ever be really happy?" I ask.

"Maybe when your baby gets here."

"Maybe... Then maybe not.... I hear a lot of people go through depression after giving birth."

"You know you are focusing on a lot of the negative things right now Ms. Demoney."

"Well my life is full of a bunch of negatives. My baby sister has ca-"

"Cancer, you're pregnant and unmarried, you're single, you have a record now. You're traumatized for life. I've heard you say all of that. You use it as a crutch." She's right I use my situation as a crutch.

"I'm gonna get on a religious level with you sweetheart."

"You say you love God right?" I nod. "Yet I can hear in your voice that you want to blame him for all the things you are going through. Which I'm sure you can easily do because he is the creator of all things, but haven't you taken a second to think about how strong this has made you? Look how he brought you out of a situation that could have led you into jail for damn near life." Oh my god. She is going in on me. But I love her for being this kind of therapist.

"That's all apart of life Ms. Demoney. Either you shape up or ship out. And obviously it isn't your time to ship out. So starting working at shaping up." I give an understanding nod

"I know." I sigh. She's right. "I just feel so lost. I think I'm a little depressed." I admit.

"I don't think you're depressed Kai." I furrow my eyebrows at her.

"Really?" She gives a nod.

"I think that is another crutch. But I will humor you by actually agreeing with this idea you have. And with that being said I want you to do a bit of homework this week. I want you to go home and write down all of the reasons you may be depressed and why do you feel these reasons contribute to your depression. When you come back for our next session, you can read them aloud to see if you still feel this way. " I give a shrug. I don't need anymore homework than I already have. Online schooling is already taking care of that issue.

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11:30 am Home

"Nanu I brought you food!" I call out to Kayden as I enter our apartment. Boxes are every where since we have been trying to start packing. Emphasis on trying. We never actually get started.

When no response comes from her I furrow my eyebrows. I know they can't be gone because Mally's car is outside. "Mally!" I call out, taking my shoes off at out door.

No answer comes from him either. That is so strange. I slowly walk completely into the apartment. Looking at Mally's open room door. Just as I am about to walk in. Someone walks out. And it's not Malano or Kayden.