Traveling Vivian

Chapter FiftyFour - Two Timing

A few weeks flew by after the incident with Calvin. We've gone a few dates and even had more sex. Phil and I still were seeing each other every weekend. I sounded so wrong but I felt like I wanted the emotions that Calvin gave me. The feelings he gave me made my heart melt. It made me feel so complete. Calvin seduced me in a more juvenile way. He was always shy around me. I knew when he wanted to have sex. He would squirm in his seat as he kisses me. His hands would run around my body, shaking. He would breathe loudly and then he would sweat uncontrollably. I would know he wanted it and I would always make the first move. I'd pressed my body down to his and start undressing.

Being with Phil was like being with a grown man who knew what he wanted. I did not have to tell him what I wanted. Phil would know. He had that strange gift to know when I wanted him. Phil was very possessive with his lovemaking. He would be the dominant one. Lovemaking with him was rough but it was enjoyable too. I would love the way he would make me feel like a child. I would just lay there and let him insert me. He knew what he wanted to do and I didn't mind it. I loved it. Being in his arms, I felt so complete.

My usual routine was very complicated. I didn't want the two guys to know about each other so I had to accomodate it with very distinctive scheduling. On Mondays and Fridays, I was at the foster house. Mrs. Hobbit did not mind me leaving the house. She figured I was going to be out of her hands soon and if you ask me, she seemed really excited about it.

Then through Tuesdays to Thursdays, I was at Calvin's house. We would go to school with Myra, together in his 99' Chevy Silverado truck. After school, Calvin got to leave an hour before school officially ended because he had work study. Work study allowed him to leave early because he was working for a living. So when I was out of school, Calvin came to pick me up right after I had a quick make out session with Phil.

Finally it was Friday to Sunday. These were the days I was with Phil. Phil would pick me up on Friday afternoon from school and we would stay at his cottage on the weekends. We would continue our lovemaking and fondling as we watched a romantic or horror film. He would help me with homework or cook us meals. It was so perfect being with him. Phil was the husband I wanted and needed.

If you ask me who I really wanted, I couldn't answer it. The real person I wanted was dead. I knew I could never feel that way for anyone except for him. Phil was the one who was closest to my heart. Calvin was sweet but he wasn't a family man or he didn't look like it. I did appreciate Calvin. Calvin was saving money for something big. I just hope I don't break anyone's heart.

Today I was at Phil's house. It was Saturday. I was sunbathing in the balcony as Phil was cooking in the kitchen. My phone was empty and silent. Calvin was working all day today.

A knock on the table stirred me from my sunbathing.

I turned and said, "Hey."

"Hey, lunch is ready." He said as he lifted the lid.

I looked at the plate and smiled. It was a plate of alfredo pasta with shrimp and chicken. There was also a side of salad and breadsticks.

"You're quiet today." He mumbled. He lifted his forkful of pasta and ate it.

I watched him eat as my stomach growled. I picked a breadstick and started taking bites. "It's okay. I'm just not feeling well."

Phil continued to take more bites. "How come?"

I shook my head. I don't know what was wrong with me but i didn't feel well at all. "I am just really tired."

Phil nodded and said, "Well we don't have to go through the drive-in tonight. We can sit back here and watch a movie here?"