Matsuma's Diary

Chapter 1 (page 1)

For today, I shall name it "Friends". This chapter is all about Friends. Have you heard about friends? Of course you do. Who doesn't? No, seriously. I was asking who doesn't. Because I may say, some people haven't heard about such word.

I just have a few friends to be honest and with those few friends, I can be crazy or drunk with them and absolutely no regrets...unless one particular thing triggered my memory of some sort.

I am not friendly because I'm shy, has trusting issues, and an introvert. Basically, I'm just a shy, quiet person who never actually interacts with someone unless someone makes an initiative.

I am also particularly a tsundere, a person who's cold outside but sweet inside. I may admit, I have "bullied" some classmates in my days. I often punch or kick them because they're annoying and I'm comfortable being my devil self around them.

I know that this is quite absurd for me to show how much I treat them as friends and not as strangers that I know by their names. If they are just strangers, then I'll not interact with them. That simple.

I never encountered such friends like backstabbers or anything in the like but  to be honest, because of what I watch and read, it's just as painful as they sound. Stabbed in the back...

I mentioned that I have trust issues, haven't I? Well, I trust people a lot before. But it's always so interesting to hear their stories that I never encountered such a painful experience from a friend (not to brag or anything). I never go to the top when I trust people so much. I trust them and hear their stories so whenever they are being teased or picked on someone else, I can stand up to them using the facts about them.

And most of all, I don't like people in general. I don't like too much attention, overcrowded places-- as I said, I'm an introvert.

Why do I have few friends? Not only because of my personality all-in-all, but because of their personalities.

I don't like people who are acting cute and cuddly, has too many crushes, plastic, slutty, annoying (and not in a good way), always fights over nothing, offensive, judgmental, never pays attention, does not cooperate, etc. All their bad habits are killing me inside so I prefer to be a stranger who knows someone by name and exterior. To them, I am a strong woman with fights as history, and to me, they're nothing but useless garbage who I want to throw out and/or kill.

A secret: I once tried killing one of my classmates last year, when I was 12 and it was around by the last quarter. She ruined my life... I never considered her as a friend... Buuutttt let's not go too deep in my personal life about this girl. Unfortunately, I couldn't kill her...

So anyway, I have nothing to say about friends other than this in my personal experience with them and how I describe them. In the next page, though I may not be the source of friendship advices, I will give you advices of how to make friends by using simple steps. It's also based on my personal experiences and I don't think that in this diary, it won't be. All the advices are from what I observed in my "friends'" behaviors...