Matsuma's Diary

Moving On

It's not easy moving on. People just love to say "you gotta move on", thinking it's easy. S/he just needs to tell you, and you're magically going to be a-ok! You know you have to move on, but you're not prepared yet. If you see or hear those words, you don't magically get better and will actually be ready to move on. Once you're ready, you will move on without even noticing.

I haven't had any relationship. It's jusy not my type. I was about to say it will be unrealistic if a young child like me will have one but then I remembered that my friends had one when they were as young as grade 6. Heck, when I was grade 6, I merely confessed to my crush with the most awkward approach you can imagine. When others are in the same age, they already had their first kiss! I'm not jealous, I'm just explaining my situation.

I noticed that they often don't care about the genuine feelings of other people and that's why they don't understand any real relationship quotes and stuffs. I haven't had any relationships but I can relate to what the quotes are saying, even if it's just a friend... A very very close friend.

I'm a very shy girl and I take those kinds of connections very seriously. I would say I'm a rare type, not to brag or anything. Most of my friends are extroverts and have a lot of people to talk to and and hang out with while I'm here, just chilling...by myself.

And from just by my bond with my friends, I could easily notice how I'm going to be attached if ever I really got a real serious relationship with someone. And so, getting to be left by someone you hold dearly or you leave them, it's equally hard to move on.

Moving on is really hard. If you ever experienced it, it would take huge toll on your emotional state too just like what happened to me. Don't think it's easy and don't ever say to "let it go.", "forget about it". Because it's frustrating to always hear those overused "advices"! Imagine hearing those words while you're actually doing those advices without even actually hearing it. It's like freaking telling a person to "BREATHE!!!", "BLINK!!!"!!!

Let me tell you something: we are moving on, we are letting go, we are doing your advices! We just care too much to ever be ready to what's to come.

Don't freaking tell a person to "move on" and "let go" if you clearly see a person trying to do that! You'll make a sad person hate you. And that's worthless, coming from someone like you.