Secrets

Chapter 12 : A confusing day...

Chapter 12

A few days later...

Riker POV

I hadn't seen or talked to Jen in a few days. I was kind of concerned.

What was going on with her? Why did she act the way she did? Is she mad at me?

I decided I was going to try to talk to her. It was kind of risky, but I needed to know what was going on. I wanted to make things right.

I nervously walked over to her house. The sun was starting to go down, and I could see her bedroom light on.

I knocked on her door, waiting anxiously. She opened it about a minute later.

"Riker?"

"Hey. Um... I was wondering if I could talk to you."

"Yeah... Come in."

I followed Jen to her bedroom, and shut the door behind me. Jen sat on her bed. I sat next to her.

"Ok. Um... So a few days ago... I don't really know what happened..."

"I'm sorry, Riker..."

"What?"

"For pushing you off the dock, and treating you like that."

"Oh... It's ok... I just wanted to know... Why?"

"Riker, I've been keeping some things from you... And I'm sorry. I have trust issues! I told you that!"

"Hey. Calm down. It's ok. I'm not mad or anything."

Jen had started to cry.

"Jen, it's ok!"

I pulled her into my arms, and she cried into my shoulder.

"I'm so sorry, Riker!"

"Shhh... Just relax, ok? Focus on calming down."

I rubbed her back slowly, listening to her breathing, which slowed down a little after a minute.

"Ok. Do you want to talk about anything?" I asked, quietly.

"Riker... I... I think maybe we should... breakup."

"What!? Why!?"

"B-because..."

"Because why!?"

"Because I... I still have feelings for Mike."

I sighed, feeling my stomach drop.

"Jen..."

"It's not that I don't have feelings for you... I do... But I'm not over my ex yet. I'm sorry... I feel bad that I still think about him, and I'm dating you. It's not fair to you."

"But I thought you didn't like him."

"I hate him! I'm furious that he'd cheat on me."

"Would you ever get back together with him?"

"No..."

"Then why do we have to break up?"

"Because I still feel something for him, Riker!"

"But he's sending you nasty messages, isn't he?"

"Yeah... Riker, I just need time, ok? I need time to get over him. And trying to deal with you is making things worse."

"What do you mean, trying to deal with me?"

"It's just hard! I feel like everyone around me is so happy, and I'm in my own little world where everything is crashing down around me! It's like I'm oblivious to them, and they're oblivious to me! It's hard, Riker! I'm all alone!"