My substitute wife

Chapter- 39 All is well?

Convo: . .

"Spit it out....." I am here listening to his explanation...

"I know I am stupid for doing that to you not only you but for everybody, I am sorry"

" Did you ever think my "sorry to" to you before?"

"I'm sorry, honey"

"Do you think I can forget it however you decided to stay here for good because of Abby"

"Of course you can't, whether you forgive me or not I am here still pursuing your forgiveness no matter what...,"

"So you have the courage now to say that words?"

" yes, especially we have build our family"

I am in confusion with his word a while ago "we're not a family don't you know that? You already abandoned your rights and responsibilities on us.. ! You set aside my love for you because. . . . ."

" I love you yesterday, today, tomorrow and in the future. . .that is all I know..."

" how can you fool me again that way? You are so mean! You always hurt me when you have your chance!! You never thought my feeling when you wrecked me! (Punching his chest...I can't hold my tears for he is acting like ignorant ...I hate him because he is here, I hate him because he is fooling me around, I hate him because of his presence, I hate him because I love him still...)

" Baby this is now or never this time is right...yes I am asshole and they knew that I am..but please forgive me this..I promise you I will not repeat my actions because I can't take anymore that I will lose you forever...I am the wost father to Abby and a partner to you..."

"See? Admitting that you are worst of all...so why do we need to stay each other? Lets end this connection between us...! I am happy now although I am not...please leave me now just say you don't love me anymore!! Please! "

I am not yet ready for his answer but I hope it is the opposite of mine...

" You hated me that much Daniela?"
"Yes!!!"

"So maybe this is it..you want me to say that?"

"Just say it!"

"If that is all you want OKAY!! are you satisfied now?"

As what I look at him he owned a fierce eye s to say that to me..he doesn't love me anymore...I am surprised with his answer and the worst is he leaved me in this four corner...he already gone.I can't believe he will do the same... I love you and I will always loving you....

I laid my body in bed still wanting him to come back and hug me saying he was joking...saying he needs me...but...to see it will never happened...sobbing in pain and grinning for blaming my self..I can't stop but to cry in silence.....this room is my witness how Nick leave me finally... I still love you...feel so dizzy and sleepy...

A warmth feeling sticking my skin..I feel I am safe and comfortable...the scent, a familiar scent...all is now soothing on me..what a nice feeling after all..now I don't know the time exactly he left me...I don't wanna think of it for now my heart is in surgery without pain reliever... my children are all I have now....please even right now let me feel that I am totally alone......

"Stupid asshole man! Girls are always doing reverse psychology...and sad to say you are not that smart enough to get it" grinning

A kiss

" yeah you are right I am not that smart to understand it all, that is why I am back"

"Nick? You....you're back? "
" how...why...what happeee.....