It Was A Mistake, But I am Unbroken Now - Demi Lovato - Book 1

Chapter 9: Can't Back Down - Edited

Demi Lovato Fan Fiction

Book 1: It Was A Mistake But I am Unbroken Now

Book 2: Here We Go Again When Two Worlds Collide

Book 3: Love is Loud Enough to Stop Hate

Book 4: That's How You Know to Believe in Me

Chapter 9: Can’t Back Down

We weren't able to talk about our plan much more because the bell rang and it was time for the next class. The teacher wrote me a note excusing me for being late and I went to my locker to get my books. David and Demi followed me.

"David you really don't have to follow me the whole day," I told him.

"Yes I do. Kay, it's your first day back. That one speech doesn't mean their bullying is going to stop," he said.

"I forgot what it felt like to be back here," I said, "How it sucks the life out of me. I know they are all talking about me and I know it's not good. They never have anything good to say. I can't do this."

I felt like I was having a meltdown. I've been at home for days and I thought I was getting better, letting that little voice in my head saying positive things finally win. Now I'm back at school and I felt like I was falling, losing all of the progress I was making. I slammed my locker closed and starting walking towards the door, fully aware that both David and Demi were following me. I stormed out the front door and collapsed onto the bench outside the door and cried. David didn't know what to do, he just stood there. Demi sat next to me and put her arm around me, trying to comfort me.

"You're just days into it," she said, "It took me months. You're healing at an incredible pace, but it's still going to take time. Have you heard my song Can't Back Down from Camp Rock?"

I just nodded my head and she continued. She started singing it to me, "We got a situation that we can't ignore 'cause ignorance is not bliss, we don't have to take this no with every big decision comes an equally important share of the risk we gotta take this. We can't back down. There’s too much at stake, this is serious. Don’t walk away. We can't pretend it's not happening, in our own backyard, our own home plate. We’ve been called out! Do you hear your name? I’m not confused. Let’s win this thing. We can't back down!”

Demi Lovato was singing to me. I couldn't believe this was happening. First I get to meet her, then talk to her, now she was sitting next to me singing. I am being stupid and I know it, but I can't help thinking about all the horrible things everyone is saying about me.

"You can't back down," Demi said, "We have to fight back and make this bullying stop. It's not going to be easy, it's going to be a challenge, but you can't let them win. All those people who won't stop saying all those horrible things, why would you let them? Don't you want to rise above it, be successful and prove to all of them that you are worth it? That you are better than they will ever be?"

"How do I stop the negative thoughts constantly running through my head?" I asked.

"You don't," she said, "You just have to look at all the positive things. Wake up every day and say to yourself 'I am beautiful'. You will feel better, I promise. Then think of one thing you are thankful for. One different thing every day."

"That works?" I asked her.

"Yes it does. Those are things that I have learned to do and I still do," she said, "Now are you ready to face them?"

I finally looked up and saw both her and David looking at me.

"Let's do this," I replied.

I stood up and walked into the school with Demi on one side and David on the other. I got back to my locker and I grabbed my books for the next class. Demi went to the office to talk to the principal and David came with me to class. It was time for math class, which I was worst at. My teacher's name was Mr. Crosby. Everyone gasped when I walked in the door. Obviously because David was with me. Mr. Crosby directed me towards my seat and he found an extra seat that he put next to me for David to sit at. I sat at the back of the classroom and I pulled my notebook while Mr. Crosby began the lecture. This is going to be a very long day, and definitely not in a good way.