Adopted By Ashton Irwin

It's My Life

This chapter is a diary entry from Sophie, just in case anybody gets confused XD

It's my life,
It's now or never,
I ain't gonna live forever,
I just wanna lived while I'm alive.

It's my life ~ Bon Jovi

Sophie's POV
Diary,
Well, it's been a while since we've spoken. I have a lot to talk about.

I got adopted. Shocking, I know. I didn't think anybody would want me. Miss Edwards knew everything about me.

She knew about the cutting, the attempts, the eating disorder and she knew about my past.

My parents left me when I was 13 because I was too much for them to handle. I hadn't done anything wrong and they abused me every night. I was an only child until my mom explained she wanted to adopt a baby, hoping that whoever it was would grow up to be a better child than I ever will be.

I've grown closer to Calum recently and I trust him. I know that he won't tell anybody about what I tell him, unlike Michael.

Ashton knows about the eating disorder and the cutting and everything as it was all in my file but Miss Edwards didn't include the attempts. All 3 of them.

Since I got left at the adoption house, I'd been thinking about everything that I could've done better. I attempted to take my own life when I was 14 by pills. An old roommate left behind some sleeping pills and I found them, contemplating how much damage I could do with a tiny capsule. I still want to sometimes but I think of the positives in life.

Turns out quite a lot because I was in hospital for two months. When I got out, I tried again but again, I ended up back in hospital for 5 months this time. Since then, I had to go to therapy twice a week for 1 hour. I hated it.

I stopped going not long after that and now look where I am. I need help but I just don't know how to ask.

I guess that's it for now,
~ Sophie :(