Adopted By Ashton Irwin

Unpredictable

Hey we're taking on the world,
I'll take you where you want to go,
Pick you up if you fall to pieces,
Let me be the one to save you.
Break the plans we had before,
Let's be unpredictable.
Pick you up if you fall to pieces,
Let me be the one to save you.

Calum's POV
"I- was a-anorexic too." I muttered. I looked up at her reaction, there were silent tears crawling down her face.
"When?" She asked.
"A few months ago, I still am to be honest but I'm staying strong and I will beat it. I believe that you can too. You just have to try." I pushed my point across, hoping she would understand.
"How did you-?" She asked before I cut her off. I knew what she was going to ask, everybody asks the same thing.
"I got this book from the doctor's office. I hadve to go for checkups every week. In this book, every page has a table. This table has a day in each box followed by what I had been given to eat and what I had managed to eat. In the last box it asks you to tick if you had..." I gestured because I couldn't think of the correct terminology. "I have mine, would you like it? It's mainly empty." I thought it might help her.
She managed to nod, wiping the tears away.

Sophie's POV
Calum walked out of my room and into his. I took this time to process what he had just told me. Somebody knows what I'm going through. I felt ashamed, for some reason.

"Here you go." He came back, looking tired. "I'm going to go back down to the boys and leave you to have a read through it. But please don't tell Luke, Michael or Ashton. They don't know about it." Calum handed me the book with the title, 'Learn to Love'. I raised my eyebrow and and let out a sigh.

"I won't." 

 I hope this works. I need to get better, for the boys but mainly for the sake of my father and myself.

I flicked to the first page and saw Calum's sloppy writing. It had the first three pages filled in with meals he had managed to eat. I looked over at the column which said whether or not he had been sick or not and noticed that in each box there was a tick. My heart broke into a million pieces. Calum is amazing, hes funny, talented, beautiful, kind, caring and it hurts to know that he would ever doubt that.

I was crying but I still managed to wear my best fake smile and go back downstairs to the boys. Luke, Mikey and Ash were fighting over a game of Black Ops meanwhile Calum was sat in the kitchen, tears falling down his face. He was eating a packet of crisps but I was glad he was eating something. The last date mentioned in the book was May 2nd 2015 and today was May 5th 2015. 

"Hey." I whispered, just loud enough so that he could hear me.

"Hi, are you alright now?" He asked, putting his crisps down and giving me a hug. That was the first time I'd ever felt how thin he really is under all of those loose shirts.

"I'm okay. Are you okay?" 

"I feel a lot better finally telling somebody." He whispered.

"I'm proud of you, you know?" 

"Thanks. I'm proud of you, too. And if ever you need to talk to someone, I'm here for you and I will understand.

"Thanks."