Adopted By Ashton Irwin

Drown

What doesn't kill you makes you wish you were dead.
Got a hole in my soul, growing deeper and deeper
And I can't take one more moment of this silence.
The loneliness is haunting me.
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up.

Drown ~ Bring Me The Horizon

Sophie's POV
I'm so glad Luke is out of hospital. It hurt me to know he was in so much pain. I never knew he had such aggressive anxiety.

This book that Calum gave me is actually helping me. So far, I have managed to eat one meal. He said he's proud of me.

Calum's POV

Sophie is doing much better. She's been trying so hard to get better but me, on the other hand, I've been getting a bit worse. It's gotten to the stage where I don't even have to force myself to be sick after a meal.

The boys have started to notice something is wrong but I keep saying 'I'm fine.'
I really am trying, not only for myself but for Sophie. She said that she's proud of me and that she looks up to me because I've been doing well.

"Sophie, can we talk?" I stood at the door frame and called down the stairs.
"Sure, I'll be up in a minute." She shouted back.

I waited in my room for her and soon after she came in.
"What's up?" She asked, coming over to me and giving me a hug. Her hugs were the best.
"I just wanted to say that I'm very proud of you, you're so strong." I said.
"I'm proud of you too. I look up to you, you know."
"But there's something you should know."
"What is it?" She looked so worried.
"Well, I, uh- I ate lunch with the boys while you were asleep and I felt bad about it, of course I did but when I had finished, I didn't even have to force it up. It came up o-on i-its own and I-I'm so s-scared, Sophie." That was it, I completely broke down.
"Calum.. It's okay, you're going to be okay. Do you feel up to driving?" Driving? Where to? She rarely leaves the house.
"Um, sure. Where to?" I said, wiping the tears away.
"The hospital. I have to go for my check up in an hour and I feel like you should come with me to those."
"Of course I will. Come on, we had better head off." I jumped up and pulled on my black converse.
"Thanks, Calum." She pulled me into another hug before we headed downstairs. I grabbed my keys and started the car.

A/N - sorry it's such a short chapter. I'm ill and my head is everywhere. This chapter is terrible so I'll probably rewrite this later on.