Only For Her

I tried my best to not feel anything for you. Guess what? I failed.

"We're stopping in Knoxville!" Dawson announces loudly, making me wake up. "We'll stop for the night there then." Chase says sleepily and his eyes droop close. I watch the highway signs saying we were getting closer to Knoxville. I really wanted to go to Nashville but we weren't on a road trip. We were on the run.

"Here, let's stop for a quick break." Dawson pulls up at a gas station. We were still at least 20 miles from Knoxville but I just stayed quiet. I buy a green tea for Tess and I and sodas to keep the guys awake. I hand to each of them and they thank me. I settle in the back next to Chase. Tess sits in the front with Dawson and I stare at their conjoined hands then turn to look out the window. A hand on mine makes me turn. I look down then up at kind hazel eyes.
Luke smiles softly and I sadly look back at him.
What's wrong?
You can't do this to me, Luke. You can't just ignore me then come back and think we can just be the way we were. You left me when I needed someone, anyone, to talk to.
I'm sorry. I was trying to do something for you. Something special that no one's ever thought of. That's why I was always gone.
How do I know I should believe you, Luke?
Because I always believe you. A-and I love you.
Y-you what?
I love you Hayden Lupei. I've loved you since the day we first met.
I look at him and he nods, and from his eyes I could tell he meant every word. "We're here!" Tess says and I pull my hand away from Luke's. "Fin-a-fucking-ly." Bryce yawns and I smack his shoulder. "No cussing. It's bad for the babies." I growl and Tess gives Bryce a look. "She's right. They hear everything. Just like their mother." Dawson says and Bryce rolls his eyes. Tess smacks Dawson in the chest and he leans forward in pain. Luke shakes his head and Chase rubs his eyes with the heel of his hands. "We're finally here?" Damn that sexy sleepy voice, it was so attractive.
We get out of the car and Luke and I go to get the rooms. "How many should we get?" I ask as we wait for the receptionist to come. "I know it's one for Dawson and Tess. I don't know if you want to share or not." He says. "I'll share. But only if there are two beds." I say and he nods. "Hello, how may I help you?" The woman smiles. "We need three rooms please. And can we get one with two beds?" Luke smiles back and she nods. "Here are your room keys, and enjoy your stay!" She waves as we leave. We had the rooms all on the bottom floor and close to the exits. "Here you go." I say, handing the keys out. "Chase and I will share." Bryce says and I nod. Everyone goes into their rooms and I open mine.

"Hayden, look." Luke says and I act as if I didn't hear him. "Hayden, look at me." Luke says more forcefully and I twist around. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything." He says and I walk towards him. I stay a few inches away since I was tempted to touch his bare chest. "I know, Luke. And I'm sorry too." I say and he opens his mouth but my finger stops him. "I've been bitchy with you when all you've done is been kind to me. And I'm sorry." I say and he closes the distance to wrap his arms around me. "You can't believe how much it hurt me to be gone like that. But my brothers made me realize something, that I haven't given them a chance." He says and I start to laugh quietly. "Trust me, they've all had chances." I say, and guilt takes over.
I don't tell him I kissed his brother. Or that our wolves mated. I don't tell him anything. It would crush him if I told him, so I stay quiet.
I hug him back and he rests his head on mine. "I love you. I really do, Hayden." He says and I avoid looking at him. "I feel something for you too. But I don't know what it is." I say honestly. "Date me." He says and I pull back with a small laugh of confusion. "What?"
"Date me. We don't have to be mates, you know. We can date, like normal people do." He says. "But we're not normal people, Luke." I say and he shakes his head. "Obviously not but let's give it a shot. It's not like we're getting married." He says and I gulp. "So, what do you say?" He asks and I bite my lip. "Yes." I whisper with a small smile and a huge grin lights up his face. He pulls me into a hug then he leans in close. "No, not yet." I say, pressing my finger to his lips again. "Awwww." He whines and I giggle. "Now shoo. Go to bed." I say and playfully push him towards his bed. "Cuddle with me." He whispers and I shake my head. "Let me change and maybe." I whisper back and his eyes light up. I grab my bag and walk into the bathroom. I lock the door and open my bag. I look through it, trying to find any of my pajamas. "Fuck." I say lowly, not finding anything. "Luke, I'm gonna borrow your shirt. Is that okay?" I ask, and a muffled okay responds. I pull on his shirt and it barely covers my behind. I walk out and his eyes look me up and down. "Oh quit it." I blush and lay down beside him. His arm lays over my waist and he pulls me against him. "This is the first time I've ever laid with someone since Kathryn." He says and I could hear tears in his voice. I turn and wipe off the stray tears on his face. "Luke, it's okay." I whisper and cradle his head in my arms. "I let him kill her. I wasn't there to protect her and I lost her." He sobs and I hold him close. "Who did it to her?" I ask before thinking of the question. "Marcus killed her himself. He had Enforcers holding me to force me to watch." He cries and I let him cry. I just kept whispering, "Shhh" to him until we both fell asleep.