Only For Her

I Broke Her

Dalca's P. O. V

"Help her! Doctor! Nurse!" I bark the moment I step foot into the pack hospital. The come running towards me with a hospital bed in hand. They take her from me and lay her down then I race off following them where they direct me. "It's okay Hayden, they'll help you." We pass through a pair of doors and I bite down on my lip.

Finally we reach a room and the doctor shoves me away. "Alpha please wait outside!" He screams despite my protests.

"She's my mate!" I scream, and I feel a prick of guilt at my choice of words.

"You'll contaminate the room, and there is no room in there..."

I give in and I wait in the hallway. I watch as people dressed in white running in and out of the room until Hayden's screams end.

"Alpha?" The doctor calls as he comes out of the room. I jump up and immediately fire questions at him.
"How is she? Is she okay?" I ask and he looks me square in the eye.

"We have to prepare her for her operation. It shouldn't be no longer than twelve hours." He answers and my eyebrows furrow. Operation? Why the fuck does she need an operation?

"What happened? Why does she need an operation?"

"I can't explain right now, Alpha, every second wasted is critical." That's when I see her. Being pulled out of the room with an oxygen mask on her face.

"Hayden!" I cry in panic.

"She's under anesthesia. She won't hear you."

"Fuck! Fuck! Aaron, I can't lose her! She's all that matters to me now!" I can feel the hot tears running down my face but I didn't care.

"Don't worry Alpha, she's out of danger, she will live! You can see her in a few hours." Aaron tries to calm me. They are then again gone into another room, that is quickly sealed.

I can't do a thing but wait. I grab one of the chairs and sit it right outside the operation room. I notice two nurses and I order them to bring Hayden and I clothes.

"Alpha, you need to eat." A nurse urges me as she tries to take me to the cafeteria. I shake my head and she gives up.

And I wait, for hours. Hayden's operation continues on.

"Alpha? Alpha?" My eyes snap open and I see Doctor Aaron.

"Is she okay? Is she awake? Where is she?" I stand up and I try to get into the room.

"Calm down, calm down. She's perfectly fine. She's alive, and will wake soon." I let out a sigh of relief. She's alive.

"I want to see her." I say with a smile and I try to get past him.

"Wait, there's something you need to know." He moves in front of me, barring my path.

"What?" What else could there be wrong?

"We have to run a few more tests to be positive, but-"

"What the fuck is wrong with her?!" I'm getting real tired of being patient.

"She had to have a reconstructive operation, and it went mostly successful. But her body is still showing signs from trauma associated with repeated sodomizing and it has left permanent damage to her, despite everything, it is still irreversible."

"What?" I ask confused.

"She won't be able to have children, because she was brutally raped."

No, no, no!  That's the only thing running through my mind. That, and my anger towards Aaron. But the only one to blame is me. The only thing I see now, is the blood she lost the day I found her. The day I raped her.

"It's hard to hear Alpha. But not all mates are found pure. And she had her heat before she met you, the poor male probably couldn't control himself." Aaron tells me. He thinks another male did this to her.

"She was a virgin. Before I met her." I mutter angrily before pushing into Hayden's room. I ignore the nurse's pleas for me to leave and go straight to Hayden's side.

"I'm so sorry." I drop down beside the bed, where my mate laid in a hospital gown with needles and tubes sticking out of her. I take one of her still hands into mine and bow my head. "I hope you find it in that golden heart of yours to forgive me. I never wanted this to happen." I cry into her hand. I didn't mean to take away her chances of becoming a mother. I didn't mean to make her bleed. I just wanted her to submit.

"She's going to be prescribed antibiotics and then she'll be good to go in about a month." Aaron says and I hold back my growl.

"Good?" She'll be perfectly fine again?

"You can resume sexual activity, but you must be gentle." Like she'll even let me be near her.

"Did it hurt her?" I respond.

"No, she was under anesthesia. She didn't feel a thing."

"I mean... how bad did the assault hurt her?" I wait for his answer, but I already knew.

"We aren't too sure, but we have some sort of idea. The first time, the male was too strong for her and it left a significant amount of damage. You know males must go gently for her hymen to tear correctly. The hymen was torn apart, like her insides. We were able to piece her back together, but her ovaries were destroyed. They can't release eggs, therefore she won't be able to produce offspring." Aaron explains and I bite down on my lip hard. I feel my tears welling up again. I broke a piece of her. I raped her. And she's paying the price for my stupidity.

I hear her starting to wake and I lift my head up.

"How do you feel?"

"Dizzy... what happened to me? I just remember you touched me, and I screamed." She says and I look at her.

"I triggered something. And I brought you here." I answer and her blue-green eyes look at me with confusion.

"Triggered what? What happened to me?" She demands in a sharper tone.

"The day I found you, I forced our mating... it was rape... and we have to go through some terrible things." I say and her eyes grow furious.

"What in the hell happened to me?" She shouts.

"You had to have a restoring operation and it left you sterile."

"You're saying I'll never be able to have kids?" She carefully pulls herself up to a sitting position.

"The doctor said it's impossible." I hang my head in shame.

"But why? You just said I had a restoring operation because I was raped... by you?" Her voice comes out confused laced with fury.

"Hayden, I didn't mean for this to happen."

"Dalca, because of you I'll never become a mother!" She screams at me.

"Eric." I say and she looks at me.

"What?" She asks.

"My name is Eric."