Dear Diary

9/19/13

Dear Diary,

I realized I forgot to mention a lot of things from these past days. I didn't write about a lot of things, but I think the most important one at this moment is that I lied to him about who I like. He thinks it's some other guy in my class. I feel kind of bad about lying, but it's better than having awkward talks with him.

Anyways, I kind of talked to him at school today. It wasn't really much, mainly because of his shyness, but I guess it's progress. I actually think it's cute how he's shy. It's different from the cockiness from the guys I usually talk to. No sense of popularity or social status involved when I talk to him through texting or skype, but in person, he makes it seem like I'm at the top of the social pyramid, and he's like...like... dirt or something along those lines. I think when we switch seats later on, I'll just gradually talk to him less and less until I just all together stop talking to him.

Well enough about my hopeless crush, I had a decent day today. Still no crash yet, which isn't worrying me as much because instead of keeping everything locked up inside until I do crash and burn, I'm letting it out through this diary. At least that's what I hope is happening, if it isn't well I should be bracing for impact then. Back to my day, it was back to school night today, which student council should be helping out with, like selling school merch, funraising, and stuff like that, but I had guitar and just helped a couple teachers decorate their classrooms before I left. I didn't even go in the end, I went to a friend's house and then went home after. After guitar I hung out with Sarah and some of her group. Those populars weren't that bad, luckily. Then I went with Kylie to our friend's house. At around 5 my dad picked me up, so it wasn't that long of a day.

Tomorrow is finally Friday, I just hope I'll get through the school day without any 'thoughts'.

~J